Hah. Weird that i actually thought i was OK at add math. And better than normal. Truth to be told, i was actually shocked at my results. Didn't really showed it but i was actually upset inside. I know my marks didn't TOTALLY sucked. But still, i have very high expectations of myself. And so i expected much more considering that i studied. Studied hard. And Prayed hard. Probably if i didn't study , i wouldn't half cared what i got.
Why ? Because didn't study = don't care about it. So it won't make much a difference.
But i Do care. It means the world to me. Thats just me. And half the entire population of Form 4 and every other forms. If they said that Smk Bu 3 is not a competitive school, i would have to disagree. I believe every school is competitive even though people think they're not. Seriously. Who does not care what they get for exams if they actually studied ? How true right ? I know how it feels like to get sucky marks. I have been there OK. Haiz.
But what can we do ? Only buck up and study harder, i guess. We can't change the past but we can change the future. =] Wow. How inspiring. Haha..
Cross my fingers and pray really hard that my other subjects won't suck just as much. The sad thing is that i was actually quite confident for add math and i got like So-So marks only... what will happen to my subjects which i'm not so confident in ?? Argh... Say bye bye to the rest.
Hopefully i will know how to conceal my feelings and emotions inside when the time comes. But i don't think i am strong enough. What to do ?
Sejarah was Good. Thank goodness. But well, everyone did as well. So it didn't make "revenge" sweet or whatever you want to call it. Nat Wongy and Lizzie are all like Super Geniuses la. Even though they said its luck or whatever excuses. Even Marion got wonderful marks and grades. I feel... stupid actually. And when i thought that i was OK. and above average kinda student. Maybe i am, just not an excellent student, no ?
Haiz, i miss blogging, truth to be told. But geniuses don't have BLOGS. They just study. Even if they do have blogs, they rarely update them. Haha. Hit the nail on its head ? Yeah. How true ? See Wongy, Nat, Al, Li Ying, Ning and Lizzie. Some have blogs - rarely update. Some don't have blogs cause probably huge waste of time when they could actually do something useful to reach their matlamat hidup or something siviky...
And with that said, how many people actually read the moral text book ? Yeah. Geniuses do read moral textbooks. Like Li Ying. Haiz..
I'm starting to feel depressed again... NOOO>> Must fight off the attack by the microorganisms ~~ =[
Where is my knight in shining armor with his white horse coming to save me ?
Me. Being me again.