Friday, February 27, 2009

Light up my path.

These days i have been writing really emo posts cuz i think there is an emo bug going around lately.. just like you know those flu bugs.. ? So yeah.. Just updates this time around. =] I feel much better now than before but not that much better.

So, exams is just around the corner .. like next week. and i have barely studied la. Only a little add math and sejarah but we have like 9 subjects and to top it off nicely.. there's also moral and sivik. Which i dunno what can they test on anyways. Haiz.

So this days me and al have these weird song conversations exchanging nice songs but we both have different opinions on the songs so it hilarious. haha... But overall, i think we do agree that Yiruma is a great composer !!! Most probably the best composer other than Taylor Swift lo.. XD

So i think i have been deep in the dumps lately but i suppose that this is the worst of it. Feeling depressed like a long time.. until today i guess. I suppose i just have to busy myself so that i dont have to think about it. Works most of the time for me. =] Maybe i never felt depressed because i always had tons of work to do here and there... or maybe i am just thinking too much.

Conclusion : Dont think too much, it can just ruin your life.

How true. I guess. I wont be onlining these days no more as i have to express study ~ cuz i didnt have time to study at all last weekend. So this is my last weekend. So i guess i'll see you in the near future.

And i have finished watching MIss No Good !! Will update with pictures and comments on the show later... after exams ??

Tata.

Sunday, February 22, 2009

Falala.

i finally thought of a idea for my oral presentation thanks to Alliyza !! Weeehhoo.

I have lots of mood swings. Weird that i wasn't created a swing or a roller coaster rather than a human being / homosapien. I decided that i will talk about my trip to NZ since i am just too lazy to think of any others that fit what i want to say. And its easy to because i dont have to memorize anything. Okay, maybe a little bit, but i can also be spontaneous.

So with that outta my mind, i need to prepare my hard copy on what i'm suppose to say. Oh well, maybe i could just do that tomorrow in school for all i know. School's a great place to study and do homework as i have a straight up dictionary of add math and all things going with math sitting in front of me. =] And i have less distractions there. Rather than at home. But i really need to start studying already. Exams is just a week or two away. Hopefully i can jump this obstacle okay - lee .

Pray for me. XD Maybe i just need to try a little harder than what i'm doing now. But i'm already trying my best. Maybe its time to give a 101 % rather than just 100 %. Thats why people give up half way or dont bother to try at all. Cuz people want all and more from you when you can only give what you can.

Well, like i always end.

At least now you know there's no trick to being me.

How nice to know that.

I'm relieved.

Me. You. Us.

Saturday, February 21, 2009

Pure Nonsense.

I feel dead tired. All because of going to a super long seminar thingy today.

On a separate note : Anyways. I thought about stuff. i am beginning to think i think quite a lot this few days. I don't think its really good for health but its good for your soul so YEAH, you get it. Firstly, i realized that studying can actually be FUN if you have wasted your time on something else that is totally useless
and you say to yourself " i could be studying by using this time instead doing nothing beneficial here " . Ever felt that before ? I really appreciate those time where you are like super duper free and go " i'm bored " . What should i waste my time on now ? Like in Standard six when studying wasn't even needed to score in subjects. Not that i did score or anything but its been quoted before by some geniuses in our school .

Secondly, i am like blank on what to say for my
oral presentation next Tuesday. I am coming up with a topic but dunno whether shityoushityoushityou Miss Gravy's shithershithershither gonna comment about some stupid thing that only she can come up with and find problems with my topic, so... yeah. Probably something that i can talk about easily..... Haha.. XD Screw her. I'll talk about anything i want to talk about.

There , i feel much better already. Maybe i should quote


Blogging is good for your health and soul.

It really encourages you to let out your feelings even though you can't say everything online = public. =[
Sadly.
But diary's are not a bad idea too , you know.

Do you know what it feels like when you mistaken people for who they are ? You think they are like that but they end up a little different. How can i have ever thought that Person A was like that ? I already knew Person A was not that kind of person.
In the end, i was just fooling myself into thinking that i actually had seen something other people couldn't. But in the real sense, people was seeing what i couldn't see. I was just blinded. I know its not fair to others who really care about me. I'm sorry.
I have been cheating myself and everyone i know.

I can always feeling it creep up to me....


It really is not special being who i am. At least now you know there isn't a trick to being me.

Friday, February 20, 2009

Depressing ?

This week has been just URGH for me. I mean there are some good points of it and some really URGH times. Like a graph. Maximum point and minumum point. Add math freak, yes i am. This week , first of all. I have to say that when they asked us to decorate the papan kenyataan of the class la. I was like "Oh Great. How ?? Hopefully ( my class ketua )* will be responsible enough to ask people to bring stuff for the board and then KAO TIM already. "
(* names have been ommited to protect their privacy )
BUT

No, he didnt. So i was like SOOOOO friggin pissed. I mean thats just how i am. I am a Friggin Resposible Person. Too Responsible if you ask Me. So i , being the penolong of the class had to do the work that was supposed to be " the ketua.s" JOB. I really apprieciate all the hard effort put in by Jia Xin !! and Marion !! for helping me complete the work in time. =] I am really grateful for having those kinda people around. XD Thanks guys again ! ( even tho its part of your job, Jia Xin...Still thanks ! ) Through that experience, i can really see who are my friends and who are not. Really. Eye Opener.

And so the rest of the day i was really pissed. And somehow it brought forward to Thursday. I was getting somewhere between Pissed and Depressed. But i think Depressed more suited the moment. i was sitting quite behind in the class as well as there being no friends from OUR gang. Meaning got friends like Lizzie, Wongy and Kar Hei. And Sharon, Kristal behind and everything but its just different. =[ It hasn't really got in my brains yet before that and i was thinking that maybe the class isn't so bad... Instead i WAS SO WRONG.

I miss everything of last year. Even though 3 Aktif had its DOWNS in terms of people, it had people who are real !! The class somehow fit right into the mold. Stupid School. They split us UP even though we did our best and everything to get into the best class and together again. I was VERY , EXTREMELY upset at that point. So i was moody like mad.
Even on Wednesday, when me and Al and Marion was lepaking and talking during Yellow house practice.. I feel like we are separating !!! I don't even talk with some of you guys anymore ! More like barely ~~ but still.. I only see you people like on Thursdays and whenever in between. I absolutely HATE it. it feels like such a competition between classes kinda thing. URGH.

Anyways, it didn't get any better.
Sorry guys, ( Jim , KY , Zi Yi ) I was really upset and depressed that day. Remember that time you guys wanted to do the Carta Organisasi thingy ?? Sorry ~~~~~~ Didn't mean to get angry and look pissed at you guys. TT More like i was pissed at my life.

Pissed at my life. Pissed at my class. Pissed at everything. I absolutely HATE miss gravy. No one to talk to except Lizzie. But we hang out with different groups anyways. Marion's a way away. Nat and Danielle's ALL the way in front. I'm stuck behind. But me and Lizzie somehow pushed the tables towards the middle so its better now. But doesn't change much.

UGRH. How many times have i said that already ? Who cares. The only thing that can cheer me up and comfort me is my taiwanese shows. There is nothing to look forward to. Except studying. Exams. Study some more. Exams again. Hopefully i can last until Form 5. Maybe a reunion is in the queue. Who knows ?

Tadaa. Now you know there's no trick to it.

Sunday, February 15, 2009

Valentine's Day.



Valentine's Day. It really gives me the creeps if you asked me about this day a few years ago... but i think i have changed my opinion on it this year. =] No reason. I just feel now that it has given a new and beautiful meaning to life.. and to people. Sounds cheesy but true. I saw a few things that made me change my mind. But before that...

Yesterday i went to school, yeah, i know ( stupid right ? who goes to school on a sat ? ) So anyways, we went for a Merentas Desa thingy that the school planned almost every year to get our fat butts off the chairs. It was quite a short run as it was only about 3 to 4 km compared to the one a few year back .. around 7 km i think. So we ran and walked... but apparently no one saw us ran and asked us whether we walked all the way ?? Thats insulting our "kemampuan" okay >>>??? Aiyoh... we are not so lembik until we walk all the way right ?

So back to the topic. I saw a real confession that day!! It was certainly interesting to watch but i thought it wouldn't be so nice to watch and instead gave them some privacy lo. But everybody went to see anyways, regardless. It was quite cool and romantic lar. All the best for them !! XD And i saw some form 1s trying to be a little romantic too... It was soo sweet. Form 1s already cant wait to be in that position ~~ =] It was really cute and everything ... and that made me think again about the real meaning of the day....

All in all, it was a nice experience lar.. going to school on Valentine's Day... XD If i wasn't so friggin tired, that is. But i got a chance to experience Valentine's day in a new light. ~~ Thats cool, right ? Hehe...

Oh yeah, before i forget .

Happy Single's Day !!
( Don't worry people, that we dont have dates and people to kau us !!
We are still standing and happy !! )


RIGHT ?


Enjoy your day, XD
Me and me and me.

Monday, February 9, 2009

Birthday bash ~

We had Ning's bday bash after so long !! I mean after the splitting of the classes la. I wanted to go out wif the gang cuz so long never see them and hang out wif them liao. Only like on Thursdays la. XD So happy le.

But i came almost the latest, 2nd latest cuz i went straight from church. Like 1 something only i reached IU. My bro teman me go find them but couldn't find them at gsc. So faster call Nat. They said finding place to eat wor. So i saw Nat and NIng at the bottom of the elevator of gsc. Quickly ran down to meet them. In the end, decided to eat at A & W. So funny, the guys sneaked up behind us when we were just about to order. Yayy... Wongy came !! Okay, that does sound weird at first but you see, he actually called me and told me maybe he couldn't come cuz his mom wanted him to go BK classes that aftrenoon plus he had to eat lunch wif his mom's kawan. Luckyly, canceled. So can go lor. =] Hehe. Saw Yappy , Li liang and his brother , and Ky.

We sat down and then we started eating... until i saw Jeffrey Teh and Su Wee walking straight past me !! It was like SO weird. Until i realised that Ky's old classmates also were hanging out wif them !! What a friggin small world. And they know each other.. Wongy knows a few of them as well as Ky too. Topsy turvy weird man. I went to curi some of their fries =] as well as wongy's fries Lol. XD Went to watch Pink Panther 2. It was quite funny la. Especially the starring of the show, Steve Martin la. Dunnno how to spell his on-screen name. HE and that Nicole so funny. XD Anyways, the EVEN weirder thing was at the end of the show, Su Wee called my name from behind and so happened that THEY WERE WATCHING THE SAME SHOW SAME TIME ~ Freaky weird. Maybe stalking us ?? Lolz. I could only dream. Hehe.

After that, we wanted to bowl and play pool but too many poeple liao.... so no choice. Ning wanted to buy some tennis balls, so we followed her go find some with a good price lor. Went to the Sporting CLub amd Jusco. In the end, she bought some from Jusco, some bargain thingy. =] Good for you Ning !! You found a good price for it. XD

We lepaked around the mall for a bit. Until Wongy , Li liang and bro went up to the arcade ... And me, Ning, Nat , Yappy, JJ ( who came all the way from PD ) and Ky ( later on ) continue to lepak downstairs. Lepak lepak lepak then Nat and Ning decided wanted to go play the " banging " game and some other game so they went up. I was forced to go up after they ditched me downstairs. Evil ppl , lol. So i watched them play. Before going home, decided wanted to get a bag for my exercise books for school so went S & J to go see. Ning ( who is cunning ) haha... went to see how much her pressie's are. haha... =]

Thats all i have time for, Chiaoz.

Saturday, February 7, 2009

This weird thing.

Dunno why i'm posting this weird thing that i received through an email from Sean but its quite accurate. =] Be my judge. I am a Virgo as i am a September baby. Even though i don't believe in this kinda stuff but here it is anyway.

VIRGO - The One that Waits


Dominant in relationships. Someone loves them right now. Always wants the last word. Caring. Smart. Loud. Loyal. Easy to talk to. Everything you ever wanted. Easy to please. A pushover. Loves to gamble and take chances. Needs to have the last say in everything. They think they know everything and usually do. Respectful to others but you will quickly lose their respect if you do something untrustworthy towards them and never regain respect. They do not forgive and never forget the one and only.


I highlighted the ones that i think are accurate to me .. What do you think ?

Lolz. Be happy. Or sad. It doesn't matter to me. I'll still love you for who you are. Xoxo.

Estee

Friday, February 6, 2009

6th February.

A lot of things always happen a few weeks before the exams. I'm talking about the piles of school homework, especially when there is a "long" weekend. Fyi, three days of weekend is NOT long at all, just for the teachers' knowledge. My class has the oppurtunity of having sej, math and add math on a Friday. They really know how to torture form 4 kids...

Plus there's this "chem quiz" which kinda i - dont - know - why suddenly includes all sciences like chem, bio and physics and math and add math.Is that even counted as a chem quiz any more ?? And Datin Tan says she wants to give us this test first before she decides the final three people. The scope for the test is like... very wide. Like the whole syllabus of form 4 and many many other general knowledge stuff. May as well, we take SPM already la !!! Sat bai weii...
we are not like super-genius with HUGE computer chips in our brains like Wongy, Al and Khai Jett. So how ??? Like whats the scientific name for RED CHILLIES. Is that even counted as General Knowldege ????? Fine. Maybe, just maybe, some kids who are Form 4 happened to know that piece of infomation. Like everyone else, am interested but its a different story on whether i can stuff enough infomation in my head to take the test which is next month, if i'm not mistaken. Next month. Let me stress that.

Haiz, but without sacrifice you cant earn anything right ? So how ? Aiyoh. I was thinking maybe i just go and try to study as much as i can and take the test la. If chosen then chosen la. If not, at least get new knowledge and learn the form 4 syllabus in advanced. =] Pro thinking hahah...

Oh yeah, currently i am watching a wacky drama called " miss no good " also known as " bu liang xiao hua ".


Here is Rainie and Wilber Pan.
( with Hu Hu which happens to be the hairdryer he's holding XD )


Dean Fujioka !!! aka Super Hotness.

Cutest show ever.Its so very funny !! Rainie acts really retarded while Will is like "sweat" in every scene with her. So very sweet. XD Its showing on 8 tv every weekday at 8.30 pm to 9.30 pm. XD Promoting. I should get some commision. Lols. Sorry i dont have a Super Hot picture of Dean Fujioka who is another super hottie other than Will !! Go yahoo and type his name. I only managed to get a small picture of him from flickr. TT. I'm crazy over this show !! I also happened to see a short advertistment on Smiling Pasta showing on 8 tv every Sat and Sun at 4 pm !!! Ahh..... I'm super happy !! But dunno whether got enough time to watch all these shows when i have to read for the quiz lor..

Another thing, if you happen to hear any rubbish from Edmund. Pls ignore it. Thank you for your cooperation.

See you in another lifetime.

Sunday, February 1, 2009

Open House ?

Heyy.. finally i will update again. Before the crazyyy week starts tomorrow. Okay. So, on Friday the 30th of January, i went to Jared's and Kin Yen's and Wei Khai's so-called Open House la. It wasn't like open open house la but they still DID open their house right ? So counted la. My mom thought it was the other open house like the eating kind, Anyways. i ate some chicken rice before i went so it was OK la. And Jared was like.. Do you wanna eat anything ? Drink anything ? like every 5 minutes so we felt kinda welcomed la. ( we as in me and NIng la ) Cuz Ning took a ride with me. XD

Well, all the better cuz we reached there so early... like 1.45pm. At least got teman. So, i as the "Oppurtunist" as nicknamed by Ashley in her blog, took the oppurtunity to poke the secret out of Ning .. Haha.. What secret >>??? >< style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"> Trust me ?


So i shall continue the story of open houses here. At Jared's house, we played PS2 and JJ's laptop ( WOW , he has his very own ) I think the game was Burnout .. something. Still. It was a racing game and we were supposed to crash the marked cars. I think Nat would have loved that game. Its crazy like madness. Haha. I beat Jared at the game but lost TWICE to Ning to claimed haven't been playing PS for a very long time. Lol. I malu sahaja. ^^

So we went to Kin Yen's house around 3.30 pm. We went in two cars PLUS a heated debate on who is following whose car and who gets the harem. If you get the pun. So in the end, JJ got pushed into it. So me Ning and JJ was in the car for who-knows-how-long with Kin Yen's dad. Weird combination yeah ? So we had some kind of weird conversation like arguement with him.... which includes the Sakai word that comes from Ning and her other pals. It was weird, but funny... me and Ning kept on laughing with how JJ and Ky's dad talked. Something about how we could have walked to KY's house as it was quite near and us being too pampered and how in his kampung they would walk from house to house and stuff. ( it was v funny, seriously )

Anyways, got to KY's humongous house. Got introduced to Melty Blood. Sounds familiar ??? Thats beacuse KY always talks about it. It was quiet fun with all its cute characters in it.. especially the one who looks like a cat with HUGE eyes. In the end, i played with Ning a few rounds and it was quiet a fair game la... Until my hands got crammed from hitting the buttons down right down right down right OH CRAP down left down left down left. Quite fun though. =] I must say. Time flew by and at 4.45 pm Wei khai's mom came to pick us.

Reached Wei Khai's house. Busied ourselves with installing Ning's cable hp thingy which Khai kept fussing with until he finally got it. JJ was playing soem com game beside Khai and we were looking on while Jared was playing err.. some game which i cant remember the name right now, Then after Khai's bro finished his hw, he went to take over . The PS2 that is. Anyways, his brother acts EXACTLY like him you wouldn't know the difference from the real thing. It was like his DNA is in his brother ( which is la for that matter ) but still, it was like WEIRD. So we ate some CNY food and jelly and drank some carbonated and sugary drinks and then it was like 6 pm already.

So the thing is, i told my mom to come around 6 pm to pick us up... but somehow it came across as i'll call you. So we waited until Jared went home then i just thought i'll call my mom to check at 6.25 pm and they were STILL in the house. I was like.. OK. Can you come now ? So we waited and my mom came at 6. 40 pm. So we said goodbye and went home.

thats about it... any other details i so HAPPENED to miss out you would have to see the other blogsssss for it.

Until tmr. XD