Celebration Service.

I'm feeling very happy today for some weird reason. Today i went to church thinking that oh, it'll be a normal normal day. But when the worship session started ~ I was jumping for joy kinda thing. Hard to imagine, hard to explain so i'll just leave it at that. But when i finally stopped, i realised that i should have consulted God earlier. He would have known what to tell me to comfort me.
Please forgive me Lord, i should have put You first in everything that i do.

I know i am special in Your eyes.
I know i am unique in every way.
I know that you love me unconditionally.

But why am i so uncertain ? I should put more faith in You Lord. I should have trusted You more.

Maybe its just the work of the devil trying to weigh me down with his lies. The worst thing is .. he actually succeeded the last time,
But NOT anymore. I have restored the JOY in the Lord !!!! =]

I am happy once again.

I should just not think too much about stuff, in general. I prefer when last time all i thought was... dreams and fantasies. ( LOL. )

Not life's a zillion times more complicated. Like i said, life in Form 3 was all about PMR and PMR and PMR.
What they never taught us was how to deal with things besides studies and other things in life.

Dunno why just the other day... at home when i received a phone call from a friend ..
i actually for one moment taught ..

Heyy, thats NOT fair !!
It was supposed to be me over THERE !!
I wanted this so badly.
I wanted this more than anything !!

But life is life and life is unfair. Maybe it was my fault when i didn't grasped the chance when i had it. Opportunity came and was lost again..

Probably the 10 things i would wish for in life is to be SMART. I wish i was born a super genius that didn't need to study. If only i could read a text book and memorize it the first time i read it through. Then i could ditch the book forever cause i had memorized everything in there.

if only i could fly away from everything when i wanted to. Away from problems. Away from misery and sadness.

Oh no. Was i being emo again ? Now i am thinking maybe this is not emoness, I'm just being a little more mature in my thinking. I just love Rainie's songs. They really depict what i feel like.. what i am going through. This is the english translation.

Dai wo zou ( take me away )

I have always walked alone
A Crossroad, living by myself
But this time you said you will take me away, to some corner, just you and me

Like the mystery of the soil grasping the flower tightly
Like the turbulence of the sky tangling with the rain
Behind you, counting steps, every rearview, every scene
I had dreams of them

Take me away, to the far future
Take away my recurring loneliness
Take me away even if my love, your freedom will become bubbles
I’m not afraid, Take me away.

Every time I will go far away by myself
Keeping my silence, not creasing my forehead
But this time you said let’s go together
Being gentle with each other from now on.

Like the mystery of the soil grasping the flower tightly
Like the turbulence of the sky tangling with the rain
Behind you, counting steps, every rearview, every scene
I had dreams of them

Behind you, counting steps, every rearview, every scene
I had dreams of them

Take me away, to the far future
Take away my recurring loneliness
Take me away even if my love, your freedom will become bubbles
I’m not afraid, Take me away.

White Horse glides through, an encompassing darkness, the tide invading, wave surging
solidify on the coast (into something black)
Wild rose pointing toward the prairie, the mailman bringing rainbows
Carved into my heart, pulsing

Take me away, to the far future
Take away my recurring loneliness
Take me away even if my love, your freedom will become bubbles
I’m not afraid, Take me away.

Take me away even if my love, your freedom will become bubbles
I’m not afraid, Take me away.

Yeah. Expresses my everything.
If only God would come now and take me away with Him
To eternal Happiness and Joy in Heaven.

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