♥ My Life. As viewed by me.

Life as a college student.

2011-09-09T13:27:00.001+08:00

When people say college life is overrated, i thought they were joking.

Seriously.

Students in their secondary school period wanna go to college so badly because apparently,

1) Its "cooler".

2) We can wear whatever we want.

3) The timetable is flexible.

Yeah.. its mostly right. Just that, ..

WHAT THEY DIDNT TELL YOU KIDS ABOUT COLLEGE LIFE.

1) Its wayy hot outside classes, and when you are actually in the air-conned classes, its FREEZING-till-you-can-even-think-yet-do-alvls-studies.

2) Yeah, but considering no1 reason, you cant actually wear anything skimpy for its WAYY TOOO COLD. So jeans 4 times a week is more practical. There you go. Tadah! A new "uniform".

3) It is more flexible.. without counting in the LAN classes from 4pm - 7pm either on tues/wed/thurs. And of course, you are also expected to join in clubs and societies, on Fridays after 12pm.

4) That while you are studying your course, you are expected to apply for overseas courses almost a year before actually going there, and it involves ALOT of extra research and planning to sit for those EXTRA admission requirements.

5) And your holidays aren't really holidays anymore. You'll be too busy planning for other stuff.

There you go. College life is wayyy fun.

Of course, there are plenty of benefits like,

if you can and own a car, drive yourself to college.

But of course, you have to pay RM3 a day just to park in a crowded carpark and come wayyy early to find a space.

Maybe you think, since i can drive, i have more time to go out with friends to kaikai during my free time in college.

Not really, most free time is too short ~ 2 hours and you gotta eat fast if you go out out.

Maybe a 4 hour break is enough... without having to come back for LAN classes in the evening la.

:( So, still wanna be in college ?

Of course i DO love my new found classmates and teachers there.

I just like to complain on the www. Hah. (:

Working Part Time and other stories :D

2011-06-07T11:57:00.000+08:00

Haha. I still think its not me to work part time during the LITTLE two weeks hols that we were given compared to the ONE month for the Jan Intake students.
But oh wells, we only live once bla bla so i took a part time job.
The fun part is, i'm not revealing where i worked UNTIL i'm not there anymore.
( Element of suspense comes into play here, muahahahaha. )

So i went for the job interview last Wednesday (: After talks with their assistant supervisor, telling me what & where & when & who, i got the job. ( Yayy, or so i thought la. First day of work blur blur dunno what to expect right ? ) ._.

Thursday - my first day of work.
Got assigned to my now good friend Poh Yee, who thought me everything i needed to know about what to do there and HOW to do it properly. (:
I spent my lunch hour with her and got to really berbonding with her on the 2nd day of work.
Poh Yee, You Really Eat A Lot. ( First impression of you, HEHE )
So i worked from 1.30pm - 10.30pm that day.

HELD : LEGS ACHED LIKE NOBODY'S BUSINESS. PAIN EVERYWHERE.
You can't even start imagining. Due to the fact that i didnt do any exercise whatsoever AFTER being fit and healthy from NS.

After those two days of working, i ate something wrong and i was unwell for two days. So no work. :S Bittersweet feelings i guess ?

Then yesterday was my THIRD day of work. Actually was kinda looking forward to it since i've been stoning & onlining & doing nonsense for the last few days. ( Actually i couldnt do much because of the stupid stomach ache which is still going on as i type this )
So i went in for work feeling HAPPY.
Somehow, once i got used to the whole routine of what to do and all, it was actually rather enjoyable.
Now i can say that i dont regret working part time even though for the few days - not even a week - i actually went in for work.
The people there are soooo friendly, most of them Burmese but they still welcomed me with open arms & always with a cheeky smile on their faces. :D
Min Naing, Min Tun, Aye Min, Ni Lin, Poudel - i'm sorry if i missed anybody out !! (:
You guys really made my day seeing the camaraderie among you all.

THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR MAKING MY FIRST EXPERIENCE WORKING PART TIME A JOY AND A PLEASURE.
LOVE LOVE LOVE from your part-timer Esther !

I'm bacccckkk.

2011-04-29T13:30:00.001+08:00

Its been officially 8 months since i last posted something up. (:

Its been a crazaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay time being in NS.
For one, i know that being in NS kinda changed me in a way. Spiritually i guess, i learn how to depend on God in everything i do. I really couldnt have gone through those 2 months and 1 week without God for sure.
The CF there WAS AMAZING. The church i went was Grace Assembly Banting and THAT church was awesome.Seriously. Everyone should go to NS just to enjoy the presence of God in those two places. :D I think those places really put things into perspective for me. I LOVE CFS. (:

Being in HELP's CF also really has helped me in so many ways. I just love meeting new people who shares the same LOVE for GOD and its just a joy to worship together with them. :D THANK YOU.

And the AWESOME EASTER service in GTPJ was nothing short of spectacular.

The 100 voices choir !!

The CLOSE UP.

I didnt expect much but i was so caught by suprise by the AWESOMEness of it all.
Amazing. I plan to expect more from the church now that i've seen what they are capable of. (:(:

Thats it for today. Loves and wishes from OVER HERE.

Birthday Wishes (:

2010-08-12T19:47:00.001+08:00

Happy Birthday, Donkey.

As to commemorate the opening of my blog again ( i hope ) & to celebrate a certain donkey's bday.

Cheers. 2010.

That kinda sounded like Cheer. 2010. But OH WELLS.

I also wanna deluge a few details about whats been going on in my life... if anyone does wanna know.

Very Syok Sendiri, i know. (:

Also, i wanna thank those librarians who have made my life as a librarian BEARABLE & sometimes FUN.

♥ I adore you guys.

Especially Marion whom i can always bully...

Alliyza who always have a sarcastic remark for everything (:

Chanette who made noise wherever she goes..

Leigh Anne and Hui Mi And Ashley - the gang who just seeem sooo crazzzzy and high (:

Aileeen, the girl who always had a smile for every situation and made everywhere brighter with her smile (:

Zi Qing, the quiet girl who have such a infectious laugh. (:

Saw Kar Yen, the happy-go-lucky girl (: Very very friendly and sooo lovely & PRETTY. ♥

Siew Kar Yen, the adorable girl who always seemed calm and cutteeee.

Shanice, the seeemingly composed girl who loves to smile..

Siti Hasya, the obedient girl who Al can always bully into doing Setiausaha stuff. (:

Nur Fareha !! - Miss you loads la. Do really come back more often (: Would <3 to see you more Lols.

Majlis was a BLAST. (: And i kinda loved it !! ♥

If only we didnt need to sing that song... Hahahahhaa.

I know, i know, all in the name of gooooood ol' FUN right ?

(: At least we'll remember it for life !


Group singing , THE BABES. ♥

The two models (:

Kay la. (: Enough adi.

Need to go makan dinner liao.

Seeeeee yuuuuuuu.

♥

XOXOXOXOXOXO Esther

Here we go again.

2010-07-08T22:16:00.000+08:00

Actually, blogger is not half bad once you've seen other blog webbies. (:
Hahahaha.
Things have been going crazyy since the last time i blogged so i'm not gonna say too much,
Just a quickie.

I decided i'm going to have two blogs.
This blog's gonna be dedicated to random musings and such.
While my new blog,

is gonna be dedicated to cell updates and movie reviews.
So anyone interested in those fields. Go THERE. (:
Hahahaha.

Alrights.
I'll be tagging that blog right here :
http://estee93@wordpress.com ♥

And anyone reading this, my facebook's cranky !! So i cant do any updates and such... Boos.

So Thats it FOLKS. (:

I have not been checking my OWN blog for one.

2010-06-03T21:36:00.000+08:00

Have just slogged through how many weeks? ...
Like 5 weeks straight, 2 weeks studying and 3 weeks taking exam after exam, like a good friend of mine said today.
And like usual...
It takes me AGES to let THAT information sink in my head.

And by the time THAT sinks in,
It'll be time for the NEXT DOOTing exams already.
Life's just unfair in every way possible.
To add salt to the wound,
another project just dropped through our window ; just as our hols were starting.
Add maths.
Urgh.

Not like our brains havent been fried enough YET.
We still have to think of solutions for the questions given AND type it properly cuz it gives us marks for our trials.

But on to the brighter side of things.
I have just managed to squeeze in watching Castle Season 2 in between taking exams and all that.
( I neeeded a rest anyways XD )
It was freaking awesome (:
But the finale was freaking potong steam lor. XD
I wish they would get together already !
Their chemistry just draws me into the whole thing... (:

So anyways.
I'm gonna be dead out tired for the next few centuries... hopefully i'm not exhausted beyond my brains by the time the school starts again..

(:
Chaiooozz.

TGIV.

2010-04-02T22:33:00.000+08:00

Thank God its Friday.
It IS good friday after all, you know.
(:
But i somehow prefer Christmas more <3
Haha.
The magic is somehow more fantasy-like and it more than always feels like Christmas. (:

It sometimes feels like Christmas mornings even when its not Christmas mornings, you know. (:
Erm. Like i sometimes randomly say Merry Christmas outta nowhere.
Cuz its fun.
And i think i must be hyper. :P

Its good friday and all.
And GTPJ is having Beloved, Easter Drama. :S
But sadly, wont be going.
But mommy brought her coworkers along.
So i'm hoping for the best (:

I've been inviting you guys to my Church Events before.
Did you guys enjoy it ?
Or maybe i should kaukau invite you guys for the Christmas one. (:
Its soooo much more jolly and happy then.
But Easter is as important.

Hmms. On another topic altogether.
You really scared me today.
I thought you had really becomed a changed person since i knew you before.
But what happened today really... frightened me.
Its like your dark side coming out all over again.
I just wish that i could stretch me hand and save you from whatever you're going through.
You seem to be happy but i know that you're hurting inside.
Everybody is.
One time or another.
Just wanted to let you know that i'm there for you.

(: And just when i'm done with my Moral DRAFTs.
And i have to get on my ass again and hand-write it all down.
Stupid me, type so much nonsense.
Now i and my fingers are aching so much that it almost couldnt move for like 10 minutes. Bleh.
Assignments are not fun.
And so it exams.
Which is in MAY ????!!
We havent even studied s***.
Seriously.
So what are they gonna test us on ?
Who knows, study everything lor... CRAZY AH ?

Chiaoz.Gonna enjoy my time for whats it worth.

Nothing-ness.

2010-03-18T18:43:00.001+08:00

Why do i even bother sometimes ?

Moving on from being emo.. :)
I was just thinking how some guys can just be GAY.
While others just show their boy- ♥ from time to time and still stay straight.

That was what i was pondering just a while ago. :)

Apart from that;
I was also thinking about the gorgeous Johnny Depp in Alice in ~~Wonderland~~ I mean, Underland.
:D

Dear Johnny in all his quirk-ness. :)

Rating : ( 7/10 )

Thats 5 points cuz Johnny's in it..

And the 2 points for storyline.

Dont say i'm bias.

In my opinion, Johnny did save the show...

With his kinky ways and madness for most of the parts.

And the show only STARTED when the Mad Hatter showed up. <3

Besides that, the show's plot was only so-so.

I mean a typical non-tim-burton-common-action-adventure-comedy show would have that kinda storyline.

I think that everyone expected Tim Burton to make Wonderland look quirky and cun and the same time ?

Oh, i dunno. I'm not a show critique right ?

:) Though that sounds kinda interesting. :D

I miss watching japanese dramas.

The one which i have been wanting to watch - Delicious Gakuen has been suspended till further notice or some sort.

So no dramas meanwhile. :(

On the other hand, I'm currently watching Castle ♥

With chemistry unlike Datin Tan has EVER seen before...

We have Stana Katic & Nathan Fillion. ♥

Just watching them gives ME the goosebumps.

I wonder whats it like to be THERE ? Hahahaha.

Nathan Fillion and Stana Katic.♥

Castle - The tv series.

And also TakaUno.

Tribute to VH's Fav couple :

Misako Uno and Takahiro Nishijima ♥

From AAA.

I just can't get enough of Castle and of course, AAA. :)

Or more likely Nissy.

But thats my FAVOURITE two boys.

♥

Till then.

Grace of God.

2010-03-15T17:36:00.000+08:00

Haiz. I've been stressed but i've dont think i've ever been THAT stressed out i would like to think. :(
But i believe that with the grace of God, He has brought me through it all.

I believe i have come out of that,
stronger,
braver,
able to handle more stress,
with more friends <3

:D I especially loved that part where we met old friends from before..
as well as made new friends. :)

And it was totally worth-ed it when we saw other schools debating and everything.
Hahaha.
It was a SMK KGV vs SMK Sri Permata FINALS. :)
Bwahahaha.
It was a fun one to watch.
But i guess wasn't much fun for those people who wanted to win and didnt;

Hopefully he doesnt kill his members for it.
:S

There are the pros in front... and the noobs behind. :)

They may say a lot of things..

But i think i've had enough stress for another billion years. :)

But i cant wait to see Jett, Sumi and Cheri in the HELP debate :D

Till then. :)

It is finished.

2010-03-09T20:00:00.001+08:00

This is for not blogging for the last who-knows-how-many-billion days i left my blog untouched.
Cheers.

I dont know what is more satisfying than seeing other people take exams when yours are o-v-e-r. :)
Call me mean or whatever but it feels good. :D
Especially when you can go around the school to bug teachers. Lols.
Call me stalker but i am.
Indefinitely.

Wahahaha.
I think the morning air gets me hyper.
Hmmm, or maybe it only works on Christmas mornings ( pun intended )
For whoever who knows the joke. :) Bwahahaha.
5 Orkid.
Alert. :D

And also whoever i wished
on my conquest to wish everyone a Merry Christmas in hope of
making the world a brighter and more happy place hahahhahaha. :)

Happy Enjoying Everyone :)

I still cant relax totally ..
Debate is killing me la.
I promised myself not to get nervous and uptight about it..
But i admit it still rattles my nerves everytime we discuss it.

Boos.
To doing my best.
And humiliating myself in front of a crowd. :)

The poster for AAA's latest album, Heartful ♥

Almost Forgotten.

2010-02-13T14:10:00.001+08:00

Happy Valentine's Day :)

Hopefully everyone gets their hearts desire this coming Sunday :D

Its Takahiro Nishijima :)

Muaks. :)

Hmmms. Free hugs if you'd like.

Grab a coupon from here. :)

http://www.funpages.com/hugcoupon/

Hahahahaaahahahahahhahahaha.

I'm serious. :)

See youuuuu around then.

I also wanna take this time to say Happy CNY @ Valentine's :)

And also ask for forgiveness to whomever i have hurt until this point of time.

Sorrys. D:

Sometimes its just me being a bitch.

Short-liv3d hols.

2010-02-13T13:40:00.000+08:00

This is my Malaysian life.
Exams just a week after hols ?
And all of Form 4 syllabus and Form 5 to boot ?
Only the education system here can do such a great thing. :(
Too awesome for words.

When i think about it, my heart sinks to the depths of the ocean.
Exams and exams not long after ?
Wow.
There's nothing to look forward to, nothings to dream about.

Thats why i love seeing you.
You make my life worth living sometimes.
Hahaha.
But it hurts often too. :s
Dilemma.
And now i gotta study and study my brains out. :)
What a Valentine's Day this is gonna be. :)

Shiny object for your viewing pleasure. :D

Happy CNY . :)

Enjoy it while you can.

Kiss goodbye.

2010-02-07T20:02:00.000+08:00

:) I think i'll just update my blog through the weeks of my life. :)
Since i think i'm beginning to get wayyy soo busy outta my head.
Wait-does that even make any sense ? :(

Lets see.
Bm lisan/forum - which i havent started planning at all with my fellow team mates.
Study for exams in March - Some of it includes Form 4 stuff and i havent even started on the Form 5 ones. :(

But anyways. :)
Nuff of the bad stuff. Rawr.
Today i had a all-cousin's gathering in Park Royal. :)
So nice to be able to see all of them after a while. :)

Hahha. Had a great time.
It actually made me feel like i dont have a worry in the world, just talking to you guys and having a blast talking about nonsensical stuff. :)
I think i'm really gonna miss you guys if i do go overseas or something. Boos. :(
Hahha. I had great fun argueing with Vincent. :D

I really have been super duper tired even when i'm just doing my hw. :(
I dunno how i'm gonna add studying to that equation.
Phew.
I cant wait to sleep. :)
Thats my only consolation in life.

I dont know why i bother updating my blog when no one reads it.

Its Almost Time; Cinderella.

2010-01-30T23:10:00.001+08:00

My time here is almost up.
Sometimes my head pound with pain.
I dont think i can take it anymore.
My legs ache most of the time.
My eyes tend to fail me.
Especially at night.

I only feel like sleeping.
The bed is my only comfort.
The place where i can leave reality.
And dreams envelope me in their arms.

Soon.
I just have to wait a little longer.

Wait for me.
Promise me.

Lets make it 200.

2010-01-30T21:49:00.004+08:00

Welcome 2010.
I'm finally settling in.
And then something changes. :S

I dont really like changes.
My feet is running outta ground.
But.
I'm just trying to be happy.
Leona's got it right.
Straight to the point.
:(

Chemistry is driving my head in.
Tak boleh tahan.
Stress every week until like mad.
I love you and everything.
But sometimes you're too fussy.
:t

Love is just plain messy.
Thats what i've learnt through the weeks that passed.
:(
Thats why i think i'm gonna stay away from it.
As far as possible so my heart cant be hurt.
Any longer.

Boos. January has passed.
And i dont think i can survive the year any longer.
But i dont want you-know-what to come any faster than it already is.

No feeding the monkeys.
Seriously.

Port Dickson.

2010-01-24T15:54:00.002+08:00

The way i see it. :)
Port Dickson is amazing. Just for the views.
I'm gonna post some photos i took during my trip.

I posted all of them too on my deviantart. :)
So take a look at my other photos if you're free.

The hotel i stayed at Port Dickson. :)

A random picture of the lamp, you know the ones they provide in hotel rooms. :)
I'm even starting to put my blog ad. and my name there :)
Teehee.
I really should get a DSLR... :S

The streetlamp near one of the restaurants i ate there. :)
Somehow it turned out great.. XD

One of the few thousand photos i took of the beaches in Port Dickson.
:)
So happen it was evening and i managed to get the sunset.

This one pulak - during the early early morning.
It was really misty and everything..
Very cold too. :P

Blogger posts up photos REALLY slowly so i only posted a few here but if you're interested,
Pls feel free to visit my deviantart profile.
Its in my sidebar. :)
Enjoyyy....
For life's too short.

A Saturday.

2010-01-23T18:22:00.004+08:00

I think this has to be the only Saturday that i didn't regret waking up so insanely early for. :)
Well. Today was Merentas Desa day.
Joy, right ? XD
I know.

So we walked like roughly 5 FREAKING km up the hills and whatnot.
:) Then i came back and was in the top...

1000. :) Teehee.
That i'm quite sure.
Not a bad achievement lols.

So anyways. We were just hanging about waiting for the 12.30pm bell to ring and everything.
And the drama begin.
No details here as i respect their privacy ..
but to those who knows.
:S

I understand how you're feeling.
:) Don't worry, we're here for you !
Now i feel like i'm torn in between my friendships.

But other than that,
CHEERS to myself and those people who managed to complete the 5km run. :)
I think thats an accomplishment already.
Thanks, al for teman-ing me walking most of the way. :)
Haha. And no thanks to our running benchmark,
I now have aching legs for trying to catch up with you.
Stupid la you. :)

I shall TRY to post a cam-whore picture or a random picture whenever i blog.
Since i saw it in the AAA members blog, i always wanted to try it. Lols. :)

わたしのともだち, ありがとございます．
あいしてるよ。

Hahha. That was really random. Just wanted to syok-sendiri. :)
Cheers.

The long-lost family reunion.

2010-01-17T16:36:00.005+08:00

I'm memang known to be rather slow at posting pictures.
But just this once, its quite ON-time. :) Enjoy the pictures and the comments that follow.
Oh, Pls feel free to post something in the chat box. Its so dead larh.

Its Felicia with Po and Te Shing :)
Te shing with his signature smile.
I think i'm gonna miss that around the house.

The cousins whom i rarely see. :)
Its nice to see you all again !!

The cute couple.
Oh wait. I mean the devil's advocate.
Haha. :)

Its my mom and Felicia. :)

The big family picture. :)
With the karaoke set behind !!

The brothers singing :)
Finally we got you guys singing.
Yeah.

Tze Win and Sam. :)
The drama king on your left.

The Ong family and some randoms. :)
Hahahas.

Yayy. Cam-whore. * cheers *
Tze Win and me. :)
The karaoke people. XD

Why are you so bloated, Alwin ?
Po's right below youuu.

The three red indians. :)
Sam, Alwin and Tze Win.

Way to go, Ong family. :)
You are in most of my pictures ahaha.
Me and my cousins !

Though its a little blurrry.
I love it. :)
Me and Alwin.

We should seriously have that another karaoke - just cousins. :)
Lets have fun before i cant anymore !

Cheers and cheers somemore.

Smile.

Last update ... ?

2010-01-09T10:27:00.001+08:00

Hi everyone.
Since you guys have been bugging for an update,
and i also think i need to update for this year so here i am.

2010 has been.
Stressful for me so far.
Seriously.
And you know whats the real problem?
It has only been the first week.

:(
I really need God to pull me through this year.
:)

Gosh.
This will most probably be the last update for the year unless.
Its hols or something.
Or i think there's something i need to blog about.
So enjoy the cute guys's pictures here and ..
wait for me. :)

The Last Days.

2009-12-24T21:35:00.005+08:00

Yeappp. The last days of Form 4 has arrived.
Not to mention Christmas is heree. ;)

Merry Christmas Eve, everyone.
I just had an supperr awesome time watching Castle on Star World.
Thats my Christmas Eve for you, people.
And the weird thing is,
I'm actually loving it.

Omg.
Am i having another crush ?
Oh great.
There goes my hormones.
Here is another object of affection :

Nathan Fillion

Just for clearing things up abit.
He's the supperr adorable and charming Richard Castle.
Not to mention, gorgeously handsome to boot.
Who stars opposite Stana Katic in Castle.
My heart is melting all over again.
But i really have to say he and her have such strong chemistry and tension in the show ;
That its grrrr. just watching them.
Oh well.

I'm just loving Thursdays so much more now.
Rawr. :)

I'm gonna be leaving for my long-awaited hols soon.
Can't wait for it.
To just be lying on the beach.
Having FUN.
Grrrr..

Another lovable geek coming right up ..
on a platter, just waiting to be served.

Here i come, Chuck.

Nisssy ;)

2009-12-16T11:24:00.002+08:00

Takahiro Nishijima of the J-pop band AAA.
My current fetish. ;)

Here are some supper cute & adorable pictures of him. And his groupie.
Oh no, I'm turning into an AAA fan.
I was actually looking for their CD in IUTAMA yesterday.
Is that supposed to mean something ?

The super awesome AAA ;)

Its Nissy ;)
( He's the one at the top btw )

Nissy from -Delicious Gakuen-
Thats a drama he's acted it. ;)

Just stare into his oh-so-innocent eyes.
Its super adorable XD

Nissy during a photoshoot for a jap mag.

He's the one on the left.

Super-cute Nissy hugging a Fluffy Pillow.
Look at him smiling ;)
Just melts your heart.

Sorry VenHui, no TAKAUNO pictures here this time.
Maybe once i'm pulled into the craze of them together then... ;)

Here's from the livejournal Takauno Website. ( http://community.livejournal.com/takauno/?skip=18 )

Here's an except from a radio interview with Nissy, Misako, and Hidaka.

Uno: No, I appreciate those things a lot. But I ignore him when he tries to impress me.

Nishijima: I don't try, I do impress you.

(Everyone laughs).

Uno: When you say things like "I wore green today because I read in a magazine that girls' hearts flutter when they see men in green." (Nishijima laughs in embarrassment)... I have to ignore you by saying "My heart is unaffected!"

Nishijima: Mean~

Thats it this time, folks. ;) Enjoy @.@

ShOpping. :S

2009-12-16T11:10:00.002+08:00

I've said it in my first post in THIS VERY blog.
And i'll say it again.
I love shopping. ;)

It just makes you happy.
Even for a moment.
~~Before you regret it later but anyways.~~
;) It makes you feel blessed.

Hahah.
I finally did my first shopping without my mom there.
I'm proud of myself.
Even though its such a trivial thing.
I can just see myself ..

shopping

In the near future.
Hahaha.
My dream job would be ..

to be a personal shopper.

Like in all seriousness.
That would be heaven.
Like a heaven full of ice-cream-kinda dream.

Ahhh.. Its been ages also that i've crapped so much in one go.
It actually feels good.
XD Blogging is like therapy.
Hahhahahahahhahha.

Soothing therapy.
Like watching

Castle
Cyril
Chuck

In one night.
Absolutely gorgeous.
I've crushes on 3 guys whose name starts with a C.
And they are on TV.
Oh well.

Xoxo. I've also bought Brad & Rebekah's Cds =]
I've heard them.
Simply AMAZING just isnt the right word.
They are like Hillsong ^^

Hmm..
Cha-cha.
Listening to AAA songs, madly.
I'm just in a period of loving people right now.

Reunion of the hearts.

2009-12-08T13:54:00.003+08:00

Yesterday was just amazing. ;)
Thank YOU Natasha and Michelle.
For going along with the super crazy random idea of having a primary school reunion out of the blue.
*hearts*

If you guys ever see this,
You know who you are. XD
Thanks for coming ! ;)
It really meant alot to me to see you GUYS again after 4 years.

But you know the really weird thing,
I was so nervous and worried that i wouldnt recognize you guys XD Haha.
But you guys made me feel at ease almost straight away.
I guess some things just never change, huh ? =)
I really miss the old days.
When we just had loads of fun and basically never really studied ? Lols.

I think i've passed the age of blogging about every single thing i did during that specific time so i'll just highlight the events ;)

Eating lunch for 3 hours.
HAHA.
No thanks to me & jian wen.
But i still BEAT YOU. lols.
That cheese is * thank goodness * not inside my stomach anymore. XD
AHAHAH.
Hey, dont blame me. I was just enjoying the moment.
I think i just passed my limit for talking for the next few years ahahaha...

Played bowling.
I Finally passed the 100 mark.
Haha.
Thank U Soung Hui.
Watching you hit spare everytime made me hit strike. XD
My good luck charm ? LOLS.
And watching everyone with their own way of throwing the bowling ball made me crack up ;)
Jian wen, why didnt you put the ball down and kick it like that litle kid ?
I was waiting for it ahahahaha.
But too bad you guys had to leave so early.

Watched movie.
AHHAHAHAHAHAHA.
This had us, which included me, chanette, jian wen and adrian, stuck in front of the GSC counter deciding which show to watch.
With two guys and two girls.
You know how wrong that looked. ;P
After like MANY phone calls and loads of laughter, we decided to watch THAT SHOW. ;)
Its the unspoken show ahahaha. ( Insider joke )
Anyways, it wasn't SO bad.
You guys THINK WAYYY wrong man.
It was a U show, what did you expect ?
AHHA. Adrian expected loads of ACTION.
Psssshhhhh. Its making me crack up AGAIN.

Bookshop.
We ended up spending the leftover time before the show to hang around MPH.
Looking at weird calendars.
And weird ASSes.
Jian wen went " This is so much better than your ass".
AHAHAHHA. To Chanette of course. Lols.

Dinner.
We couldnt decide WHERE in the whole IU to eat.
Other than overpriced places.
So we decided to follow adrian to meet up with his parents.
And ended up eating in the same place.
I was still bloated, like SERIOUSLY.
So me and chanette shared a plate of squid.
Adrian and jian wen ate the Same japanese noodles and chicken with pork and egg and who-knows-what-else.
So sweeeeeeeetttt, right ?
But jian wen couldnt finish it and kept offering adrian. We have proooooff. XD
In the end, jian wen said he was pregnant. 2-3 months. Hahaha.
We ended the day trying to give advice to him on how to care for himself while he's pregnant.
HAHAHHAHAHA. ;)

The end of the day. PHEW.
I'm still bummed from yesterday and everything.
So i'll probably post the pictures on FB.
And maybe some here larh. See first. ;)

Tadaahh.
Now i cant wait for the next reunion. XD

In a blink of an eye.

2009-12-02T21:12:00.003+08:00

Since i got a blog all those years ago.
I tend to write emo stuff and saying all those sad stuff and venting my frustrations here.
;) That has really pulled me through those times.
And God plays a huge part in that too.

My special thanks :
Thank you God for always being there for me throughout the entire 2009.
Next year 2010, its gonna be another hard year yet again,
But i know you'll always be there for me.
Good or bad.
Please forgive me if i have ever ignored you.
All those times i never give a second thought about how you felt when i forgot about you ;
And those simple miracles that you have shown me but i have pushed it aside.

I thank you for blessing me with awesome
friends,
family,
and cuddly soft toys.

;) I look forward to 2010. With you.

Church Charity Bazaar 2009

2009-11-25T12:53:00.003+08:00

HEYY. This year ;) GTPJ ( my church ) will be having a Charity Bazaar right in my church.
Sorrys i dont have the flier that contains its details .. So.

HERE YOU GO : MY VERSION =]

GTPJ CHARITY BAZAAR 2009

DATE : FRIDAY , 27TH NOVEMBER
TIME : 9.00 AM TO 3.00 PM
VENUE : GLAD TIDINGS AOG ( Sect 13 )
No. 6, Jalan 13/4, 46200 Petaling Jaya.

Yeah. For those of you whom i'd smsed.
This is the details that you need to know.
BTW, it says charity so all the proceeds will be given to the church sponsored ORPHANAGE - Rumah Juara.

Anything you wanna ask just give me call. ;)
Hope to see you there =]
Oh yeah. Please RSVP to me by Tomorrow ( 26/11/09) NIGHT LATEST.

Arigato.

2009-11-21T21:39:00.003+08:00

;) I just suddenly felt like saying this. XD
I want to thank my friends;
My beloved ~~chummy~~ friends.
Who has brought my this far in life.
Without you guys..
I dont think i would have enough energy.
To get up every morning.
And...

Face the day with such bravery.
With a smile.

And know that everything's gonna be alright.

I admit that there are some times when;
I just wanna slap you guys.

For the headaches.
For the heartaches.
For the tears.

But i still love you.
;) Lets have another AWESOME year together.
Regardless of streaming. Or not.
xoxo.

A little extra.
I just loved this picture.
Guys, i just realized that we dont have a photo together !!
Promise we'll have one the next time we meet. ;)

Mangkuk, Mangkuk and Mangkuk.
;)
Of course it's my fav picture.

Miss. Understanding.

2009-11-20T19:57:00.003+08:00

Phew. FB is a powerful tool, whether good or bad. :S
Maybe its just me who misread. the relationship thingy.
But does that mean that i'm IN ONE ?
Omg.

In all seriousness.
There's a high possibility that i'm blurrr.
Or that everyone's very CARING.
Hahas.
I can roughly guess what kind of reaction will come out of this if i do post this on twitter @ facebook.
;)

Especially those mangkuks.
HHAHA.
Lucky me that its the HOLIDAY season !!
Merry Christmas, everyone ;)
Thank You God for making holidays at the right time XD

Hehe. You guys would have forgotten it by the time school starts.
Or maybe i would forget. ;)
Wakaka.

PLEASE whoever reads this join twitter.
I am in desperate need of a someone to follow.
HAHAHA.
SEriously.
;) CG , i'm Coomminggg ;)

Getting there. But not quite.

2009-11-16T21:45:00.003+08:00

I feel like i deserve better. Anyhow.
Psssh. My favourite word for today.
I feel more and more confused.
Sometimes i hate it.
Sometimes i like it.

I dont know what to think anymore.
Sometimes i feel like pulling my hair out.
But sometimes i feel like that is what that pulls me through each day.
I know i will always have a loving and caring family,
And the LORD above.

But still.

Sigh. If only there weren't such thing like..

love.
emotions.

Then there wont be sadness.
But there wont be happiness either.

Oh well..

Its been a long journey..

2009-11-14T13:49:00.006+08:00

GHOST FRIENDS

Its been a 10 episode journey but its really been wonderful.
I couldn't have chosen a better show to start my drama addiction this hols. ;)

Kyaaaa.... i just finished it like 5 seconds ago !! Its really an awesome show.
Ven Hui, don't hesitate !! Go watch it now !! =]

Roughly the summary's about a girl called Asuka ( Fukuda Saki ) who can see ghosts after a car accident which she lost her two best friends, Miku and Yui. She lives to help lost ghosts who has lived in regret over something and helps them go on towards the afterlife. ;) How nobel, right ?? Then one day, she meets a young man ( or so it seems ) called Kaito ( Takahiro Nishijima ) who is searching for his lover, Misora ( Iriyama Yoriko ). The story goes along until their paths continuously connected as if through fate. She eventually falls for Kaito. But all is not as it seems ?? Watch it. ;)

My favourite part, the breakdown of the characters !! XD

Fukuda Saki

Acts as young and naive Kamiya Asuka.
Who can see ghosts.
And more often than not,
she simply can't reject those ghost's requests and goes along helping them.
Until she meets the lovely Hayami Kaito.
And falls in love.

I don't think they will find anyone who will play this role better than her. ;)
Even though this is the first show i've watched her act in,
I'm quite impressed. Hahas.
She's a pretty gal and can pass off as a normal high school student.
I loved her especially when she's in her fallen-in-love state.
She's hilarious. ;)
4 stars for her acting !!!

Takahiro Nishijima ( Nissy )

Acts as the lovely and charming Hayami Kaito.
The young ghost who comes back to the living world to find his lover.
But how is it that Kamiya Asuka, whom he befriended
falls head-over-heels with him ?
And he as well ?

He's character is a little complicated but he pulls it off nevertheless.
No doubt, he's a great actor. ;)
Loved his gorgeous heart-melting smile =]
( now i know what you mean, VH XD )
Beautiful acting.
Charming and sweet.
The ever-perfect man Lols.
5 STARS !!

Thats my summary about the show. Beautiful show with a deep and heartfelt meaning within it.
;) Superb. I look forward to watching his other shows !! Delicious Gakuen. ;)
I know it'll be awesome. ;)

Haha.

2009-11-12T14:20:00.002+08:00

I finally got around to updating my blog and revamping my blog at the same time.
After i done everything... i sat down and took a really good look at my blog.
Err.. its toooooo lovey-dovey. Hahaha.
Oh well.
I'm too awfully lazy to change everything all over again. ;)

Okay, Alot has happened in the last week.
Just the last week has been enough to fill my head.
Haiz.

Okay. At first i was soo hyped up about everything - exams are over.. relax ... and take up a job ?? !!

Taking a job

Okays, so last wed me, ning, chanette and michelle went to look for part-time jobs at IU.
We found some and filled up some forms larh.
Nothing much.. but we did encounter some awful weirdos.
Well, long story short.
In the end, after loong discussions and talks.
In the end, my parents weren't too fond of me taking a job. Says i'm too young.
In the end, only michelle took up a job at secret recipe.
Good for you, girl. ;)
On the hand, maybe in a few years time...

Canteen Day

Yeah. SMKBU3 FINALLY had their annual Canteen Day 2009 after it being postponed.
;) It was AWESOME. Enough said.
Though i think a lot of it had to do with Snow Sprays.
And sticky and soapy hands and legs. Haha.
Dont think sick lah.
It did happen rightt ? * winks *
I finally got a photo with ms pearl ;) * beams *
Wakkaka. And of course, gatal pictures of the original mangkuk.
Blackmail , blackmail. Hehe.

I actually didnt work at all on the day so it was like i just lepak mostly at the 4 Mawar's stall.
=] And kacau them la of course.
But that li liang ah.. steal my purple dolly !!! ( cries )
Aiyah. Wtv la. See if i care.... ;(
Lols. Joking joking.

AAA Fangirling

Hahah, Okays. This is just random but that what fangirling does to you.
So last friday i went to Ven Hui's uchi to have some fangirling time with AAA.
Lols. She has made me become a fan of AAA !! ;)
In a good way larh.
Now i simply ADORE TAKAHIRO NISHIJIMA.
More about him in the next post..
Since Ven Hui simply insists that i add him i in my top 5 list of guys.
Hahaha. I Will. No WORRIES.

=P Thats about it. And i PONTENG school today !! ( an achievement, baybeh ;)
Actually no larh, my mom's busy today so she couldnt fetch me home if i went to school anyways.
Thats the reason i get to sleep until 10.30 am today.. AHH .. ;)
Hehe, Dont get jealous, guys and girls.
Its raining now and i gotta go eat my maggi in a cup noodles now.
Chiaoz.

Back in business.

2009-11-02T21:44:00.002+08:00

Well, after coming back to school after that so-called long holidays.
I've been like non-stop in the library doing stuff.
Thank Goodness that FAT ASS isn't there anymore.
He even cleared his things from his "sound-proof" room.
Who knows what happened inside there all those years ?
;)

I was thinking of getting a job.
But who knows right ?
=p

Cross fingers that it'll work out as planned.

My Top 3 Guys. ;)

2009-10-20T15:26:00.006+08:00

Sorry, its all purely non-fictional characters.
Haha. I mean they are human people but just a tad bit outta my reach there. ;)
And they are all in no particular order.
For now. XD

Mizushima Hiro

I fell in love with him through watching these shows. LOL.

1) Mei-chan no shitsuji

He is Shibata Rihito , high-ranking butler to Mei-chan.
He's SO adorable and everything you could ever dream for !!
Or maybe its just my fetish for those yummy butlers.
Thats his picture from this show !! * hearts *

Like ice-cream.
Like Hayate... * melts *
Enough said. ;)

2) Hanakimi ( Japanese ver. )

Its been ages since i watched that show but .. he's the dorm leader.
How could i forget ?
Even with such a small part, he makes an impact. XD
He's a playboy in this show. Haha.
Like who can actually resist his charms ?
* Melts for the second time *

3) Zettai Kareshi

I actually just watched this show this year as i couldn't stand looking at that guy who plays the robot, Night.
Night was supposed to be hot and charming and everything - he wasn't.
Anyways, i was rooting for Mizushima Hiro ALL THE WAY - he was playing the part as her boss. XXX =]
He still looked sexy and everything.
Clumsy and charming at the same time ;)
* Melts again *

Jun Matsumoto

He's looking HOT here. * phew *

He acted in quite a number of shows but i can't remember which one of his shows did i fall for him. ;)

1) Hana Yori Dango

He acted as Domyouji Tsukasa as part of the F4 - Flower 4.
I know, lame name, right ?
Btw, Hanazawa Rui was part of that team too !!
I actually liked him more that Jun in this show but since i LOVED this show, i simply had to mention it.
No offense. I hate him with curly hair.

2) Smile

I have not watched this show yet ; but i'm going to. Though i think this one would really see him shine. ;)

3) Arashi

After watching HYD 1,2 and FINAL. I kinda liked him..
But it was really when i watched him sing as part of the boy-band Arashi, that made me go kinda loco.
By far, he's the best-looking of them all, or so i see la.
Especially when they sang the OST for all the HYD shows !!
It was simply marvelous. * hearts *
Plus he's really cute when you catch him at the right time la.

Sadly, the shows he chooses to act in are a little weird...
Though entertaining i guess..

Nicholas Teo

He's actually Malaysian, if you didn't know. He's MALAYSIAN ;)

1) Smiling Pasta

He acts besides Cyndi Wang in a CUTE and fun loving show.
Its really an old show, but a gem, i must say. XD
I fell in love with him, as a singer and her, as a singer as well, through this show !
He really tries to act tough and everything and teases her alot.
He even composes a song for her !!
Thats like the most romantic thing ever =]
This show is actually super romantic.
For all you mushy and love-loving people out there, this is the show to watch.
The eye-candy is good as well ~

2) Woody Sambo

He acts beside.. Amber Kuo. Yeah.
She's all tomboyish and he's all pampered from a high-lifestyle.
Together, they're really sweet !!
He ends up falling for her as they go through obstacles together.
Ahhhh.... Even though i haven't finished the show yet, its been really good. =]

And i think from what i saw through some advertisements on TV, he's acting with Belinda. From 8tv in a new show!!
Showing on sundays. But i can't remember the title and the time but i think its Love in Seoul..

Sorry, its actually supposed to be top 5 guys but i have to go now, maybe next time then =]
So satisfy yourself until i get back then.

:) Weirdo , i am.

A Short Breath Of Fresh Air.

2009-10-20T15:10:00.004+08:00

Yes.
Thats what this hols are about.
A break before the real nightmare begins.

Thank Goodness for the short but really sweet rest i have been able to have.
Especially Sunday's bbq.

Thanks So much Ning.
I know you were really tired after having us around in your house !!
And thanks for those magazines you showed me !!
I almost fainted with joy seeing Mizushima Hiro looking ever so hot in the magazine. LOL.
Haha. I can kinda understand your craze over Hey Say Jump and Kattun.. KINDA.
Now i feel like going to buy those gorgeous mags somewhere in Malaysia.
* hints heavily * - I WANT THAT JAPANESE MAG AHH -

Haha. Sorry, just ignore that sentence. Momentarily gone crazy.
Anyways. I have tuition later on. Boos. =(
Not that i dont like it, just that i know there will be H/W later.
Sad thing, just when i was enjoying myself having a rest.

A breather. Tomorrow i have to go back to school again.
To face the music.
Gosh. Just thinking about it makes me so depressed.

Ahaha.. i wanted to post a picture of him as ever-gorgeous Shibata Rihito from Mei-chan no shitsuji
to show the world the guys i fell in love with !! * faints *
Sorry, i just have a fetish for HOT butler guys. ;)

Keep an eye open.
The next post is going to be my Top 5 Favourite Fictional and Non-fictional guys. ;)

Until then, then. XD

Blogger gal is b.a.c.k. ;)

2009-10-15T15:15:00.003+08:00

It has been AGES ( who knows how long ) since i last updated. Ahah.
Sorry,guys. Or whoever who follows my blog.
But i have a good reason larh.
Got FINAL exams.

But its OVER.

FINALLY.

I dont wanna talk about it. ;( Its depressing. Haha. Dont ask. LOL.
i have a lot of comments on the series of events following the start of exams but ... yeah.
Its complicated. YOU know.

Just TRY to picture this. And tell me its not even SPM yet.
Everyday there was nothing to look forward to.
Everyday after an exam, having to study for the next exam the very next day.
No rest at all.
Ugrh.
Everyday was a challenge just to get up from napping - back to the books again.
._. It was a very sad life.
But you know whats the worst thing ?
That after the exams comes the worst part of all.
The Dreaded Results.
Just tell me about it, man.

But there's always a rainbow after the storm right ? God's promise. Ahhhh...

Time to unwind and relax for 5 days before getting back the results.
Sheessh. Talk about potong-steam man.

ANYWAYS.
Ven Hui has managed to get me KINDA hooked on to

AAA.

Which is actually Attack All Around. Dont ask me why their name is such. As i have no idea.
But Triple A works fine for me and those who know what we're talking about, LOL.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=V_yfzIyAYyQ

GO THERE and listen to them singing, though its just the guys this time round. LOL.
Sorry this vid starts with the talking part which you can just skip until the middle when they start singing, its magical.
I especially liked this version of GET CHU ! One of my Favs. ;)
No offense to TakaUno fans, LOL. But Misako's voice kinda puts me off. Though the guy's singing is lovely. HAHA.

Todays the beginning of the short hols i'm gonna have so i'm trying to enjoy as much as i can.

Thats it for today la. See ya the next update. XD

Exams are so in right now.

2009-09-17T20:55:00.001+08:00

Hey, guys. Just a little note and update before i go back to the books for another 4 weeks and then i'm free. ;)

Yeah, so its been hectic but i think i only appreciate life and school more when the exams are coming up and everything is crazy !
I don't think i've had the funnest time since EVER compared to today in the library after schooling hours... =]
Hahaha... Oh Chanette and Jin Hao. I need to get my mind off you guys if i'm EVER gonna study.
i think only Marion can understand what that even means.
I have a confession to make.
But maybe after the exams larh.. ;)
Wait for it. Ning.

Toodles. Thats all i can say.
Sejarah has been pushed forward so i need to GET ON TO IT like immediately.
Sorry no more updates until the 17 of October 2009.
And to all those PMR ers.
ALL THE BEST ! I know you guys can do it. ;)

And to all those 4 Ixora - ians.
I love you guys. Keep it up ~~

XD Bye bye !!

There's just me.

2009-08-28T18:03:00.003+08:00

The hols are here and they are gone in the next blink of an eye.

So i just thought i'll try the
- post a picture of something super random at the beginning of each post -
thing.

So there i am .. cam-whoring. First time ever okay ? lol.
I decided i wanted to be EXTRA cam-whore-y since i met Chanette and Aileen the Cam-whore queens. LOL.

I hope i'm getting it right. Haha. Any advice is welcomed.
Oh.

I just finished reading the trilogy - Uglies, Pretties, Specials.
I must say Specials is the best book of all because of all its twists. ;)
Though the ending sucked pretty badly for a good book.
I wonder what is Extras about ? Kya. Can't wait to find out larh.
Sim Syn Yi. I'm counting on you =]

Its just a random idea but. Maybe i want to study law / journalism in Japan.
Won't that be like so awesome ? ;)
I'm trying to get the part of learning japanese right..
But i don't think i'm quite there yet.

がんばてくださいみんあさん！！

For all those who wanna achieve your dreams. ;)
Reach out and never give up !
I'm trying to hold on to mine too.
Lets work hard !

My life as a " sixteen year old "..

2009-08-27T15:07:00.003+08:00

Hey.. There's gonna be loads of other versions of this thing so i'd better go first. ;)

Okay. This is to make it seem like i'm the victim here. Well, it is actually. So.

This morning my family had curiously planned an outing to the park - to exercise.
Well, nothing seemed odd.. as they always go out for walks anyways.
Until my SUPER guilty parents said .. " Oh, lets go to the Tmn Tun Park as a family occasion ! "
I didn't really thought about it much. They were just being their so-called usual self and kinda forced me to go along.
So.

I went along.. feeling really tired as i had slept late last night.
I was forced to wake up at 8.15 am. Mind you. That is freakishly early for me during the hols.
So my mom parked the car. We got out.
We walked to the starting point where the exercising stuff were.
Then.

SURPRISE !!

ESTHER, HAPPY BIRTHDAY !!

I was stunned to my feet combined with the feeling of being REALLY BLUR in the mornings.. ( i think i'm famous for that now.. )
I blink once, twice.

WHATTT ?????!!

My So-called " innocent " friends were all holding cameras and taking a video of my reaction. My BLUR reaction.
I was speechless and you know what ? I DON"T get speechless on a daily basis. Though i know now i'm a bubblehead.

Congratulations.

I half expected THAT to be very well a DREAM.
I was all.. HUH ? Its only 27th August 2009.. But they had planned it earlier so i wouldn't suspect a thing..
I knew that little boy staring at me when i walked in wasn't part of my imagination....
Sheeesh.
I kena tricked.
By my own friends.
When i finally woke up and got to my senses.

Thats just the beginning.
After that, they had a " BLAST " ( Al , Ning and Li ying ) planning some station game which BTW, is EXTREMELY tiring.
I was already dying-tired trying to FIND them.
And thats not counting doing Ning's station " kissing " game and Li Ying's " Umbrella " game.
BTW, if you see any vids from the others blog about the part of the day - I was forced to do it.
And just to clear things up.. DONT TAKE WHAT YOU SEE LITERALLY.
My goodness.
I KENA tortured laarh.

We had a cute picnic lunch soon afterwards. I ate quite a lot i supposed.
the cupcakes which were delicious, Alliyza ;
I think i would have gained weight a little LOL.
We soon started to Cam - whore but i unfortunately didn't bring my cam .. ;(
So i had to rely on the pictures the others were taking.

So sorry no pictures here !! ;)

P.S THANKS SO MUCH, guys. I really enjoyed myself even though i'm not really that into the outdoorsy stuff. ;)
Like i said.I wouldn't be what i am now without you guys. =]

P.s.s Watch out Alliyza and Potato. ;)

Sometimes i think its just me.

2009-08-19T22:29:00.004+08:00

Uhuh.
With all the H1N1 craze going around even in school as well as the whole country.
I think its just me that doesnt really feel .. crazy over it.

Yeah, sure.. some people already got H1N1 or you rather call it the Influenza A ..
To be honest, i'm abit muddled over the theory part of the virus.
Plus. Marion just got sick.
She was feeling so unwell today - Like a zombie.
Plus she's not coming for the next two days.
Thank goodness its only for thurs and fri.
I dont think i can survive school without her there ;(
Miss you loads already..

And i think its just me that thinks getting certs for school koko is retarded now i have to go PURPOSELY because of that.
And now Marion's not coming either.
It'll be me and Wongy only i think. Haha...
I wanna sleep in so badly ;(

Plus the really weird and odd thing that happened to me today was ..

Ms Yeow.
As in the squeaky high-pitched english speaking one.
When i stayed back today for librarian duty.
And was in the canteen to eat lunch as usual.
She came up to us : Me , Alliyza, Marion and Hui Shyen.

Ms Yeow We Me

Whose Jessie ?
Err.. no one..
Oh.. oops. Not Jessie. Whats your name ? ( refering to me )
Err.. Esther ?
Oh. You're Esther.
Yeah.. - super long moment - Hi.

> Super weird awkward moment in the history of my life <

Plus she ended up sitting in the next table with Pn Tan, And Pn Hoo.
Please dont let her read this. Omg. ;)

Thats all i have to say for today.

Bonus story ;) I changed the story a little.

There was this princess who lived in a tall tower.
The tower had everything she ever wanted..
Food, nice clothes and toys to play with.
But the thing was..
The tower didn't have a door. Or a stairs.
There was only a window to look out into the forest below.

The princess always wanted to have a mirror to look at her beautiful face.
But the tower would not give that to her.
Soon she became fed up with her cosy life up there and she jump down, never to go back again.
She ran as fast as she could to find what she was looking for her whole life.
A mirror.

Soon she became tired from the exercise.
She reached a stream.
Clear and pretty.
Flowing through the forest at a slow and steady speed.
Hold on. CLEAR.
She rushed forward, wanting to see that face she had all those years.

What she saw was..

UGLY.
She was an ugly princess.

To be continued.
P.s those who know where it came from.. =] Enjoy my version.

Bubble-making ; totally.

2009-08-16T16:08:00.003+08:00

Hahas. Excuse the title.
Only people or rather UGLIES-fans would understand it but oh well.
Lets get started.

For the first time in my life as Esther Goh.
I sang on stage, during Youth Service.
It was on of Ps Julie's SUPER RANDOM and spontaneous acts and she wanted new people to worship and play the instruments.
And since VH and Amanda went for the first services'.. she encouraged me to go up as they were calling ppl.
Thanks. ;)
But it was like so perasan lar.
I mean.. nobody asked me to go also.. but aiyah. I went anyways. Cuz of my love of singing.
But my throat went dry on me and my voice box like TOTALLY crashed when i went up.
I could barely sing a note.
Thank goodness i wasnt like worship-leading or whatever.
Though Crystal and the other guy as well as Jack. You guys were amazing.
I was super nerved-wreck and yet you guys kept your cool and produce results !!
I think Ps Julie was really proud of you guys.

On the other hand. You wanna know what went through my mind when i was standing there ?

I was thinking.
" Oh crap. I shouldn't have wore this shirt today if i knew i was going on stage "
" Oh crap. I look wayy too tall up there especially on stage "
" Oh crap. I can't sing properly. Is this mike even working ? I bet it isn't. Then no one will hear me sing horribly "

This just feels like singing Karaoke in Nat's house.
Which is just weird thinking that when i was actually singing in front of all of the youth of second service.
Feeling extremely nervous.
Haiz.

But that was quite cool, actually.
LOLS. Hear me babble on. Teehee.
~~Now i'm thinking of joining the worship team. Hah.~~
Just me and my wishful thinking combined with the euphoria that hasnt quite worn off.
Just wait for me.

I'm coming.
Why isn't there someone to catch me when i fall ?

Dance ; today.

2009-08-09T18:42:00.002+08:00

I am doing my updates in double now since i barely touch it. So just you cant say i dont update. lol.

Today after waking up at 7.30 am and getting to church on time.
I went to Ky's house for a Dance PARTY - just joking.
I went there actually to supposedly help Ning torture the guys ( see? She's evil too .. ) with their Prefects dance routine ;
But in the end, i got to learn so much more XD

Don't worry Ning.
I didn't feel bored cuz i was learning the dance moves too !!
I feel like i actually can dance !! Not well like you and jimmy but O-K lar.
Maybe i ought to take up dancing classes or something lol.

Sorry Ky cause i went there to WASTE your precious resources - as i wasnt even supposed to be there.
You could have starved me of food and water if you wanted to save the earth mah.
I wouldnt mind. ._.
If that will make you happy.

I had loads of fun too =]
Thanks guys and Ning =p
I was too lazy to take any pictures so.. there arent any.. sorry !!

Thought that it was important enough to get a post by itself.
Hah. Take that.

For the weekS to come.

2009-08-09T18:19:00.003+08:00

Haha.. I know i've been lagging like seriously at my blogging updates ._.

So i'll start .. now. Lol.
I always think of things to blog until i come to the com and then -blank-
Thats just how i am.
Btw, i just realised my blog is like way dead.
Partly my fault. Soray.

So many things have passed since i last blogged so its only fair that i give a timely update with everything going on.
Chill. I'm getting there.

FIrstly, Maljis P & P.
It was a joy to be there for the first time ever since i was on "duty" but only for registration. ;p
Thanks to Aileen, my super-crazy-hyper partner that was half the time running around cam-whoring and preparing for your drama, dear girl;
You still made it enjoyable XD
And not to forget all the hyper friends that i have .. who sat at the same table at mua.
I already miss the Form 5 ers. Especially that Wei Mae who hugged my ass off. XD
I'm sorry i havent got to posting the pictures !! You should just know now that i am SUPER lazy at posting pictures.
I think they take too long to upload larh. so rawr.
But i promise i will get to it some time.

Now you've made me feel guilty - For what happened last Friday - Hari Anugerah.
Don't ask. =] Or maybe you should ~~ask Jin Hao.~~ =[

Hari Anugerah Cemerlang 2009.
It was certainly a unique one - since its the FIRST i've been EVER in BU3.
It feels like an achivement - then i see so many other students getting the same boring file ..
Then i hit back into reality.
- bam - =[

I also managed to finish ' Uglies ' which i havent had time to read - thanks to azizah super long + boring speech.
But oh well. I didnt even hear most of it.
I heard it was full of herself and .. like half and hour long.
Haiz.
I hope Danielle wont start on her obsession with azizah again. she likes to do that alot. like REALLY alot. dont you ?

I almost forgot the YE sales.
It so happened on the SAME BLOODY day as Maljis P & P.
I was so pissed when i heard that.
Must be ah wong and his antics.
Or maybe that complaint i've heard so much about.

YE sales was so tiring i could sleepwalk after that.
There was only like 3 of us - Me Marion and Jo Yen. And Hui Hwa + Hui Shyen.
And Kah Mun who stayed with us until like 6 pm and then she had to go. Thanks, dear. You already did way too much so i dont blame you.
And i guess we did our best .. but i know we could have done better.
And the schedule was really messed up.
And i heard that some people didnt meet up to expectations.
Oh well. I guess there will always be people like that in our lives.

Sheesh. I'm like so over all that. And Hari Kantin / Karnival is coming up.
Whats a girl gotta do ?
Sleep =]

Update ...

2009-07-31T17:14:00.003+08:00

Haha.. i give up. I'm updating now.. see ?

Though i'm busy facebook-ing.. XD more now lately. thanks to certain people. Friends For Sale is someone's ingenious idea of addiction.

Though i'm busy with YE - like the sales tmr at Sunway Piramid !!
Come and support our stall if you happen to be around the area =] teehee.
Hopefully i'll be able to upload some pictures after the event. XD

Though i'm busy with Librarians crap. As in that Majlis P & P which is just so IN THE WAY of everything. Sheesh HIM.

Though i'm so busy lately i haven't even had some time to relax or have some time to myself.
All of it devoted to something else ... something else..
I am in a desperate NEED of a SPA vacation.

lol. And maybe an original DVD of Zettai Kareshi to go with that. =] I love that show !! I cant wait to see it on Sunday. ._.

I guess i wont be updating anytime soon so.. XD Enjoy this post while you can... Lick it alllll up.

BTW, the Vandread manga has just got updated and its finally completed !!! XD FINALLY. I waited some bloody 3 months for this.

Aww. Gosh. Time to go and indulge myself with those things in life that still makes me happy and satisfied.

Or maybe i'm just not ready for commitment.
Taddaaa.

Life.

2009-07-10T14:00:00.002+08:00

Haha... Now all i ever talk about is life and all those philosiphical stuff.

I'm so busy its almost up to my neck.. Sometimes i just can't take it anymore.
Then i remember that i still have something to live for...

Cheesy Wedges. Yum.

XD Facebook is getting to be awesome but the only reason is because i can bug Hui Hwa and Ms Pearl there. What fun conversations we have through chatting about facebook comments and such. =]
Those good and nice days.

On another note. I dont go on Facebook for the games and pictures... just for the sake of connecting with friends through there. Thats all.

Argh. I'm getting so lazy until i dont even update my blog , scrapblog or even my shows and dramas anymore.
And i'm still thinking of joining Deviantart. But who knows when i'll be able to upload my photos there LOL.

Do you really think of me ?
But you promised..

I'm waiting for my prince on his white horse.

Till then do we meet ~

Wow.

2009-07-02T21:01:00.005+08:00

A lot has passed since my last post.
I realized that blogging takes up time and i don't have much of that nowadays.
If its not librarian, then its YE. If its not YE, its projects and studies.
My life is so full - i barely have time to breathe. * Takes a deep breath *

I miss so many things that i used to have.

I miss you.
I miss the time when i had my time - free time to myself.
I miss being surrounded by my friends and having a fun and great time together.
I miss planning people's bdays until like crazy with everyone.. and keeping it a secret from them.
I miss being crazy and hyper and laughing like mad.
I miss being able to relax.
I miss being able to think of all kinds of nonsense..

But on the other hand,

I'm happy for Lizzie and Marion that has always never failed to brighten my days.
I'm happy for Wongy who is always there for me to bully. XD
I'm happy for Natasha and Danielle - the sick couple.
I'm happy for Sharon and her love stories that always entertain.
I'm happy for Syn Yi and Leigh Ann that is just so random.
I'm happy for Su Yinn that i can play BB ball and Stephanie !!
I'm happy that i'm in my class.
I believe that God put me there for a reason.

I dunno why i always tend to be EMO when i start blogging... Oh well..
Not like there's much to talk about these days that are happy;

One more thing - i keep saying this but its so true !
Yappie looks SO CUTE in his Pengawas Uniform !!! XD
You're welcomed. LOL.

And BTW, the FEdEx sales was GREAT ~
I always love selling rather than the tiring work of making the actual products - but it was worth it. =]
Thanks guys.

And Thanks Pn. Zaida !!

Oh well.

" Can we accept the good things from GOD but not the adversities in life ? "

That really is what that spuurrs me on ... XD
I just gotta keep going i guess !!

Miss you loads =]

2009-06-20T23:22:00.002+08:00

Even though you are only leaving on Tuesday. This is clearly dedicated to your loving memory =]

Sounds like you're dying. OoPs.

Looks like all those years in the same class paid off .. huh ?
Mind you THATS THREE years.

Thanks for all the * funniest * memories that you've given me.
Especially this year.

Especially those including Nicky.
( you know who i'm talking about )
* grins *

This is an insider joke but i'll say it anyways.

Maybe you guys are meant to be together =]
Even though you're not gay or whatsoever.

I meant that.
Even as friends.

Just wanted to say one last thing before i get all teary-eyed. ( LOL )

Don't forget us at Bu3, especially those of 4 Ixora..

I know you want me to say this and FINE.
I'll say it for your benefit.

I'll miss you. Alright ?
=]

Keep in touch yeah ?
You promised.

Hope that you'll make more lovely memories in CHS with your new-found friends. Blessings given. Hehe.

Long day..

2009-06-20T23:03:00.000+08:00

Long days but short time .. =]

I haven't been updating much these days.. i much prefer to do scrap booking nowadays.. Hehe.
Its much more fun and satisfying.
Especially when you see your finished work and everything XD
Nothing BEATS that.

Haiz.
School has started again.. after the much sought-after hols... after the tiring exams.
And the super depressing results... Tell me about that man..

But i hate depressing stuff - so if you didnt know.
So I'll change the subject now.

I somehow love the japanese language... and i never get bored of hearing japanese words over and over again..
I'm now taking japanese lessons. =]
I'm quite excited about how its gonna turn out.
Hehe. Anime and manga here i come !

Just a QUOTE.
Hayate the combat butler ROXXXXX.
Just for your knowledge.

A little secret to those people who are still reading my blog anyways - I think having a personal HOT butler is just AWESOME-ness.
HAHA. I wish that i can have a butler for my bday. If that is even possible..
Let me fantasize. Alright ?

Me

My latest hobby..

2009-06-11T22:57:00.002+08:00

Heyy..

Hows your hols ?

This is my newest and latest hobby & addiction XD.

Online Scrapbook -ing.

Its new.
Its fresh.
Its fun.

Wakaka.

Here. Check out my first try at this THING.

www.scrapblog.com/pieces_of_me

Teehee.
Following Zettai Kareshi and Hayate the combat butler. And lovingg it. =]

The glow of the firefly.

2009-06-10T12:04:00.004+08:00

Hotaru no Hikari

You know, i've never really thought about it before but..
Fireflies may actually be quite pretty.

Their butts that glow in the dark.
Can be pretty amazing too. Lol.

Well. This is my latest addiction. Haha. The story can be easily read anywhere but i'll give you my personal rating =]
Okay, it was worth the watch, as always. Thanks Ven Hui for introducing my to this wonderful drama. XD
Rating .. out of 10 la..

8.5/10.

Muahaha. It has been given an 8 because there was not enough cute guys in the show. Hahah. There were only like 2.. XD

Okay. Review of STARS.

Ayase Haruka as Amemiya Hotaru.
AKA Ahomiya.

She is one pretty lady i must say.
The way she acts at home is like .. heaven and earth if compared to the way she acts at work.
However, her pretty demeanor at work granted her the affection of Teshima Makoto.
Her house partner is .. her boss. Takano Seichii.
Well.
She has the bext of both worlds. =]
What else can i say.

Naohito Fujiki as Takano Seichii.
Aka Buchou. =]

He portrays a very matured man who recently just separated from his wife.
However, he slowly develops a weird relationship with our dear heroine,
He's her friend and everything she wants in a guy.. she just didn't know it yet.
Sweet and charming.
Always goes the second mile for her. =]
But i kinda suspected it already.

Kato Kazuki as Teshima Makoto.
Aka the Hot guy in the office..
( or so they say.. )

Okay, Fine. I admit. He's quite a hottie.
Especially the way he looks with his glasses... can make me faint. =]
Well. Typical guy whom all the gals like.
He's quite okay i guess.
Perfect for a school girl crush. XD

I think you can guess the ending.. but its worth the watch. Especially all those nicknames that Hotaru gets from Buchou. XD
And they are so adorable together !

But i also learn that love can be heartbreaking and really saddening too. Its not always garden and roses.. yeah ?

=] Me and me.
Lets hope i can get through this.

This time.

2009-06-10T11:56:00.003+08:00

This time i'll get it right.
This time i'll do it right.

" Shall we accept only the good from God and not accept the adversities ? "

I feel like i've grown up.
I want to spread my wings and fly together with you.

No complains.
No more grumbling.
No more mumblings.

Take more chances.
I want to believe in myself.

I can do all things through Him who gives me strength.

Amen.
P.S Watch out for .....

The Time Spent.

2009-06-06T20:43:00.003+08:00

I have just came back from Port Dickson !!
Yayy. I think CLR 2009 has been great and has really been a blessing to me.
Hmm. They really should have this more often.
I just love the feeling to be able to bask in His presence.
Just enjoy the feeling.. XD

I feel refreshed.
I think it has done me worlds good.
And i'm ready for the heavy workload now.
And i 'm ready to be a changed person from now on.

But the thing that has been bugging me ALOT is YE.
Geez. A lot of stress and responsibility comes with the title.
I seriously need HELP.

Marion. We need to talk. Urgently.

Yes, yes. The pictures will come soon enough.

But not now.
Another good news.

I FINALLY got my very very own RUBICs Cube. Or would you rather call it the cube of rubics.
Ahah. Plus i've watched Night at the museum 2 ...

Only a weeks of hols left.

I'm back.

2009-06-02T14:27:00.004+08:00

Back from Langkawi, guys ~~ Have been tired to the extent that i slept for like 5 hours after i got back, which is this morning.. around 5.30 a.m. Probably that was the few times which i got up so early in the morning. Sheesh. Thats the thing i hate about trips. Early wake up calls and whole days full of traveling and SHOPPING. Not that i'm complaining about the shopping part. LOL.

Geez. I'm awfully tired and dont feel like writing about the whole trip that will bore people to their deaths so i'll end here.

I'll uodate with some pictures another time.

Tadaima !!

Did you miss me ?

Generally amusing.

2009-05-29T13:35:00.002+08:00

I'm off to Langkawi in about 3 hours ++. =]
Just bored and before i lose myself into the realms of Soul Eater again until coming up for air at 4 pm, i decided to write a few stuff.

First of all, surprise surprise.
I went to school today. And " pontenged " after being there for about 1 hour or so. LOL. no explanations given.
The thing that surprised me the most is the fact that WONGY didn't come to school today. W.o.w.
That is shocking shocking. Wayy serious. And i wanted to bully him. TT

But anyways.
I need to clarify something.
I like the small font that i use to type for my blog.
There you go.

Its small and tiny.
Mysterious.
Cute.
Pretty.
Fascinating.
Something i was never.

Oh well. If i keep on blabbing on i'll never get to reading my soul eater. =]

All me.

2009-05-28T15:08:00.003+08:00

Exams are FINALLY o.v.e.r. I felt like they were never going to end. For two whole weeks, all form 4 students could do was to study their heads and brains off in hopes of getting what ? Good grades ? Good position ? All of that isn't worth it , really.
But whats a form 4 student gotta do ? Study lor.

Until your head feels like its gonna burst.
Until your head pounds with such intensity.
Until you feel like you're going crazy.

Thats basicly all about the exams. Not to say i did badly as i've not received the paper back yet. Hopefully not until the hols end. But i have a bad feeling. Anyways, moving on.

YE is killing my brain cells as well. I mean, there's just so many things for a company to work there's gotta be a better way to handle it. Goodness. I don't think i can handle anymore. Not to say i hate the librarians even more. Long story. And that FAT ASS. Hmph. I mean get a consiousness, man. You just gotta pay us dammit. If i was not in librarians, i promise i will give them a piece of my mind. ( this is where all the swear words will come into place but i'm trying to control myself and my anger ).

Well, i'll be going off to Langkawi for the weekend with the librarians. ( tell me. someone must hate me so to put me in such a position. ) I'm excited. Just to be able to spend some time with my nice friends during the hols. I mean you dont get this kind of opportunity often right ? So yeah. Trying to be optimistic about it. At least there's my lovely room mates to be able to vent my anger on . Haha. If you guys are reading this, dont worry. You'll get more than you expect. =] And Alliyza, love it or hate it, you're stuck with us for 5 days straight. Buahahaha.

And i finally can read my manga again !!! This days all i think about is those manga i'm dying to read.
Namely - Vandread. But they have not post up the latest chapter. AHHH.
I'm currently reading Soul Eater. Its really stupid. Funny. I feel like an idiot just laughing at my computer screen.
I am also wanting to read Ouran High School. Since they never really got round to producing the anime for the second season. Rawr.

Off to my church camp after coming back from Langkawi so if i dont post any updates, just be aware.
Haaha. Dont spam my chatbox saying i never update blah blah blah i'm an alien studying freak.
Just to let some people know.

Cheers.
And i just finished Rurouni Kenshin the anime and i was sooo addicted to it that i simply had to read the manga.
And i did. XD
THEY MARRIED AND HAD A KID !!
I am so friggin happy for them !!
Even though they are just anime characters. =]

A quickie.

2009-05-08T14:30:00.002+08:00

Oh, how i just dread exams. At least it isnt SPM yet though its still bad.
I'm quite tired just from catching up with homework the teachers pile us with , and yet..
Exams are here before you know it.

It has been nothing but homework, homework and homework and orals.
Yet we have not studied much from bm and english.
I really wonder how did those teachers ever get a spot in a university ?
Haiz.
No use complaining about it now.
All is done.
I just need a little push from the back.

Well, there you have it.
Like i just said, exams are just around the corner.
Like next week.
So i wont be updating my blog due to laziness and am studying.
Just on for today only. XD

BTW, i'm totally in love with the Rurouni Kenshin series now !! XD
I just watched the anime and now reading the manga to know the ending.. cause the anime had kinda a sucky ending, sadly.
I know they END UP together but i want to SEE it for myself. haha..

And we just had out first YE sales yesterday !!
I think it was GOOD for a first sale lor.
GOOD job guys !!

And cheers to much more work to come !! LOL.

CHIAOZ.If there's any better word.

Befday wishes.

2009-04-24T14:06:00.004+08:00

Exams are coming and i really need to unwind from add math and bio so i'll just keep this short and sweet.

Really late ( sorry TT ) birthday wishes to my dear Lizzie !

Happy belated birthday , Lizzie dear ~

Sorry for the awfully late wish !
Thanks for always being there to listen to my complains about add math and Miss Gravy.
You make the class bearable enough for me to carry on.
Love you to bits.

And not to forget our Wongy aka Nicky..

Happy belated birthday, Munn Kitt ~

Hope you like my birthday gift , LOL.
And hoped you enjoyed eating 5 pieces of swiss roll. =]
Thanks for always helping me in add math.
LOL. And being gay with Kar Hei.
Haha.
Stay gay and stay wongeee.

Yeah. Stay the same guys !! I'll say this again. You guys keep me sane in Ixora. * Triple hugs *
Xoxoxo.

All in a days work.

2009-04-17T16:23:00.003+08:00

Did i just use the same title i used before .. oh well. Not that its my fault, add math fried my brains for good. TT Yesterday all bacause of Pn Gan's homework, i had to use like a total of 5 hours or more .. who knows ? to complete all her homework .. that is due today. Thats what i thought. But in the end, she went through with most of the chapter review exercise and said pass up next mon worr. So actually. I didn't need to rush. HAIZ..

See whose so sat bai ? But i am so amazed at the fact that Pn Gan can complete 3/4 of chapter review exercise in a span of 2 periods. Wait. For easier calculations, its like 4 questions per 5 minutes.. without explanation la. I wanna become a add math teacher and show off my skills to little form 4s next time LOL haha.. XD like i can LOL. My dream ahahaha..

Anyways, the mid terms are like 3 weeks away and i am so madly filled with schoolwork. I dont even have the energy to study anymore. If i do study in the weekends, i wont any rest at all TT. Plus .. logarithm is freaking me out. Not that its super hard or anything but its CRAZY hard. I dunno how to do like most of them !! While everybody else tries their best and still manages to do some of the less hard ones la. I'm sooo in trouble. I don't think i can just rush the studying during the last weekend before the exams like i did before..

Oh well. I'll just go back to my own dreamland until the day of judgement comes.

I miss Mei-chan and HER SUPER drop dead gorgeous RIHITO !! XD

Happy Easter ~

2009-04-12T14:41:00.004+08:00

This is gonna be not really about Easter but here goes anyways.

Happy Easter guys !!

Heyy.. I'm in a VERY good mood right now and since its Easter and everything , i'm double happy ! Jesus is alive ! XD He's not dead but alive in heaven and in my heart!!.. singing during the Easter Celebration Service today, during worship made me really joyful outta no where. Even though i know i have to go back to the slaving and studying in school tmr.. i know at least i had my own time to relax and enjoy this weekend. I can't wait for the hols !! But i'll have to study extra harder that way TT.

Btw, i just finished watching a new japanese drama entitled " Mei-Chan No Shitsuji " which means Mei's butler. Its really funny and it also helps that the Rihito is oh-so-cute !! XD Lol. The summary is something like this.

Basicly, its about a girl , Shinonome Mei who lives with her parents in the countyside at along. But when her parents suddenly die in a an accident, she is left helpless and alone. However, this is when she learns of her real roots as the successful Hongo Coperation's only succesor. She is at a lost of what to do and confused when a handsome butler, Shibata Rihito comes along and tells her that he is her butler and there to serve her. He also tells her as the succesor of the Hongo Coperation, she must enrol herself in a super-rich school, St Lucia Academy to train to become a lady worthy of being a heiress.

She doesnt want to leave her own life but she untimately follows through with her grandfather's wishes and goes to St Lucia when he blackmails her that he wont bury her parents remains together. She learns a lot and she grows to have many friends in the form of her classmates who at first thought nothing of her. After going through lots of hardships together with her classmates they learn the true meaning of friendship and love. XD

Okay. Here's the real reason to watch the show !

Mizushima Hiro as Shibata Rihito.

He's the Oh-So-Good-Looking S-ranked Butler. Mei-chan's butler.
He initially acted in Hanakimi as the good looking dorm leader , rmb ?
Because of him, i wasn't able to take my eyes of this yummy show LOL.

Eikura Nana as Shinonome Mei.

She's the protagonist and Rihito's lady
and object of affections.
How lucky. * sigh *

Sato Takeru as Shibata Kento.

Thats right. Rihito's younger brother and rival for Mei's love.
Even though he's not as HOT as Rihito, he's really funny so he gets an OK from me.

There are many other yummy pictures and shots of two of them together
but this quite shows all there is. XD HOT ness.

Group PHOTO !!!

I should think this is the BEST japanese drama i've watched since Hana Yori Dango. XD
And for the record , Smiling Pasta as the BEST taiwanese drama of all time. =]

A poem.

2009-04-09T21:41:00.003+08:00

I was just feeling like it so i wrote a poem. =]
All the words used has nothing to do with my life..or maybe it does.
Whatever you want to think. Enjoy.
Courtesy of deviant art photography.

Change

Was it all just a dream ?
The way you look at me ?
The way you would talk to me ?
All the times you told me again and again ....
that you'll always be there for me ?

Was it all just an act ?
Your heart lies elsewhere
But you'll never admit
Still continue to lie

What was this always about ?
Leaving everything hanging
Whenever you liked
Confusion overruled my mind

Where is the connection ?
That we used you have
Back then all those years ago
Separated only by the air that surrounds us

Were we ever meant to be ?
I'm suffocating just thinking about it
I can't breathe any longer
Can't someone save me

What about our memories ?
A thoughtful wish won't be able to erase
All the pain you have given me
Laid out neatly tied together with those empty promises

Was it all just a dream ?

You tell me.

Written by Esther 2009. Original poem. TM.

This exciting event.

2009-04-03T15:00:00.003+08:00

EASTER DRAMA ALERT.

Yayy. Its THAT time of year again !! GTPJ is having its

very own Easter Drama entitled

BEYOND TEARS.

The flyer i was supposed to upload looks... weird. so just visit the links under here.

JUST CLICK. I KNOW YOU WANT TO.

http://www.facebook.com/event.php?eid=58668631698

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=q4jxTnzSukQ

BEYOND TEARS

TIME : 8.30 pm

DATE : Friday ( 10/4 ) and Saturday ( 11/4 )

VENUE :
Glad Tidings --- > No. 6 , Jalan Bersatu 13/4,
46200, Petaling Jaya,
Selangor , Malaysia.

TEL : 603-79582777

Website : www.gtpj.com

ALSO you're welcome to join us for the follow up Easter Service on

Date : Sunday ( 12/4 )
Time : 8.30 am and 11.00 am.

P.s In case you're wondering why is there two dates or two times given.... Its exactly the same thing going on. XD
Just in case. =] You can choose actually NO DIFF.

Anyone interested ?
Just leave a message in my chat box or sms me yeah ?

Not yet.

2009-04-03T14:29:00.003+08:00

Ven hui's notes madness. Here goes.

This is called 50 FIRST REACTIONS... Type what comes to your mind FIRST whenever you hear these 50 words. Don't think and don't go back and change. Doesn't matter how random just type it!

1. Beer: alcohol.

2. Food: kfc.

3. Relationships: not ready.

4. Crush: David Arculeta.

5. Power Rangers: random.

6. Life: sometimes suck.

7. The President: of america.

8. Yummy: food ?

9. Cars: too fast too furious.

10. Movie: Definitely, maybe.

11. Halloween: scary and freaky.

12. Sex: reminds me of the " health quiz " thing..

13. Religion: Christianity.

14. Hate: my hair.

15. Fear: heights.

16. Marriage: is a beautiful and wonderful thing.

17. Blondes: are dumb.

18. Slippers: fluffy !!

19. Shoes: high heels.

20. Asians: ROCKs.

21. Past time: sleeping. seriously.

22. One night stand: totally disgusting.

23. My cell Phone: Na-da.

24. Smoke: smelly.

25. Fantasy: haha... final fantasy. XD

26. College: is said to be overrated but i'm still looking forward to it =]

27. High school Life: roller - coaster.

28. Pajamas: Bananas in Pajamas !!

29. Stars: Bright.

30. Center: of the world.

31. Alcohol: Shandy.

32. The word love: The most amazing thing in the world.

33. Friends: are just temporary.

34. Money: WOOHOO.

35. Heartache: is very painful.

36. Time: tick tock.

37. Divorce: are very popular in movies.

38. Dogs: The utmost cutest thing in the whole world.

39. Undies: HAHAHAHA.

40. Parents: are there for a reason. Whether good or bad. Only God knows.

41. Babies: Are the net closest thing to brats.

42. Ex: friend.

43. Song: Love story.

44. Color: Brown and grey.

45. Weddings: are every girl's fantasy.

46. Pizza: SEAFOOD pizza.

47. Hangout: my home.

48. Rest: on Sabbath.

49. Goal: to become a lawyer.

50. Inspiration: the people in the world and beyond.

Well, excuse me.

2009-03-29T20:19:00.003+08:00

Well, i haven't got much to say but i decided i should just update my blog the last time for this weekend as i may not be so free the next week.

For the first thing i wanna say, I have just finished Persona 4 !! XD
Which is after playing it for the whole hols.. lol..
Though it didn't feel as good cuz after that i read that i missed out a couple of things towards the ending.. TT
But anyways. I still finished it. Yayy !

I just wanted to say thank you to my parents and all my fans out there ...

Ahhem. Back to reality. i am in a dilemma right now. Chuck.
Sounds like i'm talking about a guy. Yes, i'm kinda crazy over him. Nerd or not, he's HOT. And Cute. And Funny.
Haha. so i have a choice of whether i wanna watch it with Wei Khai's dvd or wait until the season 2 comes to TV.
I am the pioneer of the Chuck Fan Club and so if i choose not to watch it now with the dvd i will have to lend it to Nat and Dan and probably Zi Yi.
And then they will watch it faster than me and i won't know what they are talking about. TT
So how ?
I know once i start watching .. i won't be able to stop. Ahh.. How like this ?

I just have to start thinking what are my priorities. Maybe i should watch it next week. Hmm.

That is if we don't get any projects that will be killing us from behind.

Talking about projects, i cross my fingers and hope that they won't be giving many projects this year cause close to orals, i HATE projects as well.
That just sad man. Haiz. better not talk about this kinda thing. Later i jinx it.

Well, on the bright side. It seems like YE has earn some revenues. Good news for YE members and all shareholders. LOL.
But i am a litle upset about some things that happened as well. I may as well address it later on tmr during the meeting. XD
Don't worry those who have done your part and extra .. I am very proud of you as your assist MD as well as your friend !!
Haha. I sound old.... or maybe i am..

TT I should probably grow up anyways. Better not still remisnisce the past ... It'll just be sad and depressing of all the fun times we had =(

Am i really that scary ? I think i seem so. It that good or bad ? Who knows ?
But i definetely can't change overnight and be someone whose pretty and lemah - lembut.

Oh well....

What can i say ? Hopefully there's something about me that can show people the love of God.

BTW. There's something exciting coming our way this 10th and 11th APRIL ~~ Keep an eye out for it. XD

All in a week's work.

2009-03-27T19:38:00.004+08:00

I think i just lost a few years in my life just for this week itself. Phew. Another few weeks of this and i'll be a few years older. Seriously. Too much stress is no no for anyone. I cannot believe people working have to go through that once in a while... thats why they are all " fried " in the brains anyways. I have been stressing my brains off for YE. If you guys have not known just by looking at me during school hours this week la.

Cause who said i was good at hiding what i'm feeling yeah ?
So.. I'll start with a few weeks back. I actually went for a Sushi Making Class at my brother's university ! =]

How cool is that ?

It was on the 14th March .. Haha.. cause i totally forgot about uploading stuff about it.. i actually took some pictures of my handiwork !!
And i was supposed to pass the group photo to another girl... TT Sorry !!

Anyways. I had such a blast there !! I now can make sushi ! I feel so good about myself. LOL. Perasan betul !! XD
I should go work at sushi king during school hols and earn some MONEY baby.

Here are the long awaited photos.

My sushi friends ! ~ Hui Yin and Isabelle.

The sushi making stuff.

My sushi. XD

Nice right ? Hui Yin's sushi.

Group photo.=]

So i will continue on about THIS WEEK.

Firstly, i had my 2nd English Oral.
With whom ? Miss Gravy. Who else ?
Well, to her credit, she was quite nice about the whole thing and wanted to give us high marks if we deserved it. =]
I fumbled a little but thankfully, Lizzie saved my ass. Lol. Thanks, girl.
Well, we did out best so i think thats enough. =]

Well, to be honest. The YE stuff took up most of my brain space so i didnt really plan what i was supposed to say. My fault. Yeah.
I DID practice at least 4 times with Lizzie but i kept forgetting anyways. LOL. ask marion. Haha..

Talking about YE. Gosh. I am soo totally exhausted i think i can sleep for decades !
There were like dark rims around my eyes for like the whole week. TT
I had to make sure this make sure that.... and i know that Julia was really stressed too as she had to make sure how much this how much that.
Well. I wont go on about it. Gives me more stress. Lol.
But i think we did out best for today ! ( Sports day baby ! )

Here are the photos ~ stole them from Chanette's blog. XD

Early in the morning...

Us la - la people setting up the stall.

The unfortunate incident. Or not.

YE group picture !! =]

Cam - whores ~~

And everyone was dead tired. =] Thanks for all your hard work guys !! Really couldn't have done it without you !

I think though, next time. Planning has to be WAY before the real day. Or not everyone will go haywire. For serious fact.

Everyone agrees. But though. Everyone. RELAX for the weekend. Go for a spa or something. Or go grab that much wanted STARBUCKS coffee you have been eyeing for some time.

You deserve it. =]

About coffee. I drank my first few cups of coffee today !! First time !! XD Its actually the first time it wasn't THAT bitter. Probably cause its from the can.. HAHA. And now i'm craving for that cup of STARBUCKS.....

Gosh. Time for CG.

Gtg. Bye.

XD....

2009-03-21T22:51:00.007+08:00

1) The person who tagged you is:
Beatrice .. aka Beat Rice or my personal favorite - Sunglasses gal.

2) Your relationship with him/her is:
Good friends and buddies.

3) Your first impression of him/her is:
She's funny. Lol. Cuz she comes packaged with Charis ... haha..

4) The most memorable moments with her:
Err... having her in our science tuition ??

5) The most memorable thing he/she has said to you is:
Err... I dunno worr.. sorry !! Cant remember, she said a LOT of things.. haha..

6) If he/she becomes yr lover, you will:
She's straight , i'm straight.. it'll never happen. Period.

7) If he/she became yr lover, what should he/she improve at:
Haha.. She's fine the way she is. But not lovers... Swt...

8) If he/she becomes yr enemy, what would you do:
Call her sunglasses GAL !! or maybe if i'm evil enough... beat rice... LOL. But hopefully we'll never be enemies laa.

9) If he/she becomes yr enemy, the reason will be:
Errr.. that i keep calling her sunglasses gal ??

10) The most desired thing you want to do for him/her now is:
Hug her. and tell her what a good friend she is !! XD

11) Your overall impression on him/her:
Funny girl and Jesus / Hillsong - loving fanatic like meeeee !!

12) The characteristic you love most about yourself:
Err.. That i am Esther. =]

13) The characteristic you hate most about yourself:
That i am sometimes too lazy.

14) The most ideal person you want too be is:
MIss Universe ???!! hahha.... i think i'm great the way i am already. XD

15) For people that care and like you, say something to them:
Haha... Thanks ?

16) Pass this quiz to 10 ppl who you want to know how they feel about you.

1) Elizabeth
2) JJ
3) Li Ying
4) Mei Fong
5) Soungie
6) Su Yinn
7) Syn Yi
8) Ven Hui
9) Xiao Ning
10) Zi Yi

17) Who is 6 having a relationship with:
Haha.. How would i know ? Ask her yourself. Lol.

18) Is 9 a male or female:
Female ..

19) If 7 and 10 were together, would it be a good thing:
Well.. Maybe ? Haha... I would support it though.. LOL.

20) What is 2 studying at the moment:
Military stuff or politics.

21) When was the last time you had a chat with 3:
Haha.. Err.. Two days ago, i think. Through sms.

22) What kind of music does 8 like:
Japanese songs. XD

23) Does 1 have any siblings:
Yeah. A little brother. Called Nicky.

24) Will you woo 3:
Haha. A lot of people KAU her already... dont need me .. XD

25) How about 7:
Haha.. Maybe she got BF already ? Who knows ? I'm straight. Rmb ?

26) Is 4 single:
LOL. Last time i checked.

27) What's the surname of 5:
I keep calling her soungiee till i forgot ! Oops ~~ Sorry !

28) What's the hobby of 5:
Stalking people ? Haha... talking random stuff.

29) Do 5 and 9 get along well:
They don't know each other. Oh wait. Maybe they do.. since its a small world after all .

30) Where is 2 studying at:
SMKBU3.

31) Say something casual about your eyes:
Weird thing. I saw them this afternoon and i think they are PRETTY. Hehe.

32) Have you tried developing feelings for 5:
NOOO.. she's my goooood friend !

33) Where does 9 live?:
Near my church.

34) What colours does 4 like:
Err.. Sorry. Don't know this one. But if i could guess.. maybe blue and white ??

35) Are 5 and 1 good friends:
Don't think they know each other. ... Like i said, Or maybe they do.

36) Does 7 like 2:
Hahahahahahaha...

37) How did u get to know 2:
Used to be classmates.

38) Does 1 have any pets:
Don't think so. Not very sure.

39) Is 7 the sexiest person in the world:
Hahahahahahahha....

Funny how i always get tagged at the right moment. Lol. XD.

Hols.

2009-03-19T16:33:00.002+08:00

I have a very encouraging note to start off this time around.
I am not going to be down in the dumps anymore cause Jesus has brought me up to my feet again !!

I am truly strengthen by God's powerful message that he had for me yesterday..
As i was reading the 2342 bookie yesterday .. i came across..

Nehemiah 8.10

..... Do not grieve, for he joy of the Lord is your strength.

=] The joy of the Lord is my strength ! I have been missing that all along.
If i am happy in the Lord, He will provide strength for me to face life's challenges.

Equation 101. That's why i have been feeling oh-so-depressed lately = no strength for me to face any hardships along the way = more depression.

Bingo. Thank goodness that i finally found out whats wrong.
Or not i will continue to be in the dumps like deep down.

Am happy for the moment. ~

But unfortunately today was a bad day again. TT
Got angry... i really should control my anger and hot headed-ness.
Need ice..
Anyone ??

Haha... i am practically blabbling here. Maybe thats what blogs are for anyways.

I am such a jealous person.
You make me feel so happy .. then you back stab me.
Is that how you really feel ?
I am not falling for the same trick in the book anymore.
I'm fed up and done with.
I'm never falling in love again.
Or was i ever in love ?
Hmph. How i love my own wishful thinking.
Better off if i just dump my feelings aside and forget about the whole matter.
We are students for that very reason. To study.
Or maybe its just me.
I don't need anyone.
Except God.

Maybe i just need a break from all this.
Or maybe i'm not talking about who you think i'm talking about.

Oh .. how i love riddles.

Till then.

Wishing.

2009-03-13T17:46:00.002+08:00

Even when i felt like fainting. But i had to. A promise is a promise.

2342

I promised myself. Its a personal agreement thing. I will carry it out until the end.

Mom said maybe i could just do veggies without the meats.
But i dont think i could the meats so i just did without either. Lol.
I am an extreme person.

Well, as for results. Again. Yeah. i did badly for eng.

I treat it as an insult to myself when i cant even do well in eng aka my first language.
When others can do so well, why cant you, Esther ?
Yet you still fail to push yourself to your limits.

When i tell myself that i did my best. I end up with bad results.

Plus i kena deducted marks for add math. THATS sad.

TT.

People who are successful stay successful while people who are not successful stay UN succesful. Thats life. Isnt it ?

On a high side.

At LEAST its hols now.

Boo-boo. Hols are only a week. Then second oral liao.

And i'm starving.

See you on the other side.

Another one. XD

2009-03-12T22:21:00.002+08:00

Another tag ( kinda ) from VH. Sweat la you. I'll do it anyways though i'm supposed to be sleeping .. Lolz.

If you're Asian you GOTTA take this quiz
If you're not, take it anyway and see if there's an inner ASIAN in you =p

So, how 'asian' are you?????

[x] Both of your parents are from Asia
[x] You were born in Asia
[ ] You use the term "Azn"
[ ] You think DDR is cool ( what is that ? )
[x] You've watched lots of anime ( Yeah... man )
[ ] You like Korean dramas ( All the way Jap Dramas, man ! )
[x] You have stuff hanging on your phone ( WILL definitely have !! )
[x] Your parents want you to marry within your own race ( Uhh.. i guess ? )
[x] You eat rice almost everyday
[x] You drink lemon tea ( Yayy !! Lemon Tea ~ )

X's so far: 7

[x] You style your hair ( Sometimes ? )
[x] You have a bebo/myspace/friendster ( i dont even check it often... )
[x] You speak languages other than English ( Yeah. Malay )
[x] Your parents are strict compared to other REALLY asian parents ( my parents VERY strict about some stuff )
[ ] Your parents have high expectations of you ( I have high expectations of me self )
[x] You always get A's/B's on your report ( Err. )
[x] You do/did Chemistry/Biology/Physics/ Accounting. ( pure science mah. )

[x] You know your multiplication table ( haha. )
[x] You play badminton or table tennis ( Yeah, both. )
[ ] You've seen the asian version The ring/The grudge ( nope. scary movies are freaky. )

X's so far: 15

[x] You go/want to go to a university and would NEVER consider an apprenticeship ( I want a sijil okay.. )
[x] You own an asian car (Honda, Toyota, etc)
[x] You're not the only child
[x] You've gotten little red envelopes around February ( Duh )
[x] You know the difference between kung fu, karate and tae kwon do ( kinda )
[ ] (If you're a girl)You prefer white guys over asian guys (If you're a guy)You prefer asian girls ( dunno ??? )
[x] Your mother tries to bargain even though the product is already discounted
[ ] You can do the rubiks cube
[x] You have a box of noodles somewhere in your house
[x] You play video games

X's so far: 22

[x] Everytime you're going out your parents ask you where you're going and what time you'll be home
[ ] You have karaoke at home
[x] You know BOA/Gazette/Ayumi Hamasaki/Gackt ( Boa and Ayumi. )
[ ] You've been to a LAN more than 3 times
[x] You have incense sticks/moth balls in your house ( moth balls lar. )
[x] You own a gaming console
[x] You play a musical instrument ( does played count ? )
[x] You don't wear shoes in your house
[x] You can use chopsticks
[ ] You get nothing if you do well in school

X's so far: 29

[ ] Your parents won't let you go out if you have school the next day ( depends where ..)
[x] You have asian songs on your computer/iPod
[x] You don't like football ( sheesh . not really hate it. but dont like it. )
[x] You have a curfew ( yeapp. )
[ ] You know what ulzzang/tb means
[ ] You know what purikura is
[x] You like bubble tea ( its quite nice. =])
[x] Your parents bought you shoes many sizes too big so you can "grow into it" and wear it for years to come ( yeah, man. So uncomfortable )
[x] You've played final fantasy ( weeeeehhoo. FF roxx. )
[ ] You believe in fortune cookies

X's so far: 35

[ ] You know what bok choy is
[ ] You've heard the song "Got rice?"
[x] You have a tutor ( as in tuition ? yeah.. )
[ ] You've had pockys/yan yan before
[x] When you seek for your mother's permission she replies "Ask your dad" ( yeah. and dad goes ask your mom.. )

X's so far: 37

Total X's: 37
Your total x 2
Result: 74 %

Weehoo. 74 % asian baby ~~ XD ASIAN ALL THE WAY .

Kena Tagged Sekali Lagi ~

2009-03-12T21:31:00.003+08:00

Rules: Once you've been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 25 random things, facts, habits, or goals about you. At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you. If I tagged you, it's because I want to know more about you.

Actually kena tagged in facebook but i DONT go on facebook so yeah.. thought i'll just do the tag in my blog..
Like Ven Hui ...I don't think i can dapat to reach 25 random facts about me self but i'll try.
Hopefully i can squeeze randomness outta me.. XD

Random Fact # 1 - My favorite color is brown.

Random Fact # 2 - I love Taylor Swift and Rainie Yang's songs.

Random Fact # 3 - If you haven't known, i like Nicholas Teo too !! He's a malaysian btw. Cool right ??

Random Fact # 4 - I do not go on facebook and friendster anymore. In fact, i ditched it a long time ago.

Random Fact # 5 - I love plurk.

Random Fact # 6 - I love Takizawa Hideaki in dramas. His songs are OK. But not crazy over his songs..

Random Fact # 7 - I love Oguri Shun like in Hana Yori Dango !! His character as Hanazawa Rui is just... amazing. GO WATCH IT !

Random Fact # 8 - I like Jun Matsumoto everywhere else except in HYD. Sorry girls. hahaa...i just dont have a thing for guys with curly hair.. =]

Random Fact # 9 - I Tunes sucks. It works ever SO SLOWLY. Sheesh.

Random Fact # 10 - I think MAC computers sound cool even though my bro said its hard to figure how to work it out.

Random Fact # 11 - I am thinking why am i doing this tag when i'm supposed to update my blog with school stuff. ?

Random Fact # 12 - I am v sat bai leh..

Random Fact # 13 - I wanna have a CF in my school !!! Am praying for it to come true since lots of people tried already but Panda still is resisting changes... ( inertia )

Random Fact # 14 - I just accidentally misspelt inertia.... what the..

Random Fact # 15 - i don't think i can do this thing anymore.. haha.. outta ideas.. XD

Random Fact # 16 - Following VH and whoever who thought of this idea. Am gonna be 16 this year.

Random Fact # 17 - Yayy... am reaching 25 super random facts liao !!

Random Fact # 18 - One of my favorite animes of all time is Ouran High School. =]

Random Fact # 19 - My latest drama i have watched is MIss No Good starring Rainie Yang and Wil Pan.

Random Fact # 20 - I am embarking on a new drama this hols !! i hope.....

Random Fact # 21 - I am actually crapping random stuff about me self through this tag.

Random Fact # 22 - I like japanese dramas and taiwanese dramas !! Korean dramas are a little too laggy for me..

Random Fact # 23 - My favorite taiwanese drama is Smiling Pasta !! Again. GO WATCH IT !

Random Fact # 24 - Haha.. just realized that i have been talking about dramas and anime this whole tag thingy !!

Random Fact # 25 - The manga Absolute Boyfriend ( Zettai Karashi ) is WAYYYY better than the drama ~ V disappointing.

Well, thats about it !! =] Tag whoever who reads through this until here !! XD

Me and me and me and me . Maybe you.

Tell me why do you run ?

2009-03-08T18:29:00.008+08:00

Have been quite moody lately so i just thought i do some "art" when i'm free. Love the concept.

Credits to Sze Mun, Devianart and Me. =]

On another note, maybe i should be a photographer !!
I just love how the camera can catch those beautiful moments as they go by.
Simply amazing.

Celebration Service.

2009-03-08T15:38:00.005+08:00

I'm feeling very happy today for some weird reason. Today i went to church thinking that oh, it'll be a normal normal day. But when the worship session started ~ I was jumping for joy kinda thing. Hard to imagine, hard to explain so i'll just leave it at that. But when i finally stopped, i realised that i should have consulted God earlier. He would have known what to tell me to comfort me.
Please forgive me Lord, i should have put You first in everything that i do.

I know i am special in Your eyes.
I know i am unique in every way.
I know that you love me unconditionally.

But why am i so uncertain ? I should put more faith in You Lord. I should have trusted You more.

Maybe its just the work of the devil trying to weigh me down with his lies. The worst thing is .. he actually succeeded the last time,
But NOT anymore. I have restored the JOY in the Lord !!!! =]

I am happy once again.

I should just not think too much about stuff, in general. I prefer when last time all i thought was... dreams and fantasies. ( LOL. )

Not life's a zillion times more complicated. Like i said, life in Form 3 was all about PMR and PMR and PMR.
What they never taught us was how to deal with things besides studies and other things in life.

Dunno why just the other day... at home when i received a phone call from a friend ..
i actually for one moment taught ..

Heyy, thats NOT fair !!
It was supposed to be me over THERE !!
I wanted this so badly.
I wanted this more than anything !!

But life is life and life is unfair. Maybe it was my fault when i didn't grasped the chance when i had it. Opportunity came and was lost again..

Probably the 10 things i would wish for in life is to be SMART. I wish i was born a super genius that didn't need to study. If only i could read a text book and memorize it the first time i read it through. Then i could ditch the book forever cause i had memorized everything in there.

if only i could fly away from everything when i wanted to. Away from problems. Away from misery and sadness.

Oh no. Was i being emo again ? Now i am thinking maybe this is not emoness, I'm just being a little more mature in my thinking. I just love Rainie's songs. They really depict what i feel like.. what i am going through. This is the english translation.

Dai wo zou ( take me away )

I have always walked alone
A Crossroad, living by myself
But this time you said you will take me away, to some corner, just you and me

Like the mystery of the soil grasping the flower tightly
Like the turbulence of the sky tangling with the rain
Behind you, counting steps, every rearview, every scene
I had dreams of them

Take me away, to the far future
Take away my recurring loneliness
Take me away even if my love, your freedom will become bubbles
I’m not afraid, Take me away.

Every time I will go far away by myself
Keeping my silence, not creasing my forehead
But this time you said let’s go together
Being gentle with each other from now on.

Like the mystery of the soil grasping the flower tightly
Like the turbulence of the sky tangling with the rain
Behind you, counting steps, every rearview, every scene
I had dreams of them

Behind you, counting steps, every rearview, every scene
I had dreams of them

Take me away, to the far future
Take away my recurring loneliness
Take me away even if my love, your freedom will become bubbles
I’m not afraid, Take me away.

White Horse glides through, an encompassing darkness, the tide invading, wave surging
solidify on the coast (into something black)
Wild rose pointing toward the prairie, the mailman bringing rainbows
Carved into my heart, pulsing

Take me away, to the far future
Take away my recurring loneliness
Take me away even if my love, your freedom will become bubbles
I’m not afraid, Take me away.

Take me away even if my love, your freedom will become bubbles
I’m not afraid, Take me away.

Yeah. Expresses my everything.
If only God would come now and take me away with Him
To eternal Happiness and Joy in Heaven.

<3>

Emo No More ?

2009-03-06T18:09:00.004+08:00

Hah. Weird that i actually thought i was OK at add math. And better than normal. Truth to be told, i was actually shocked at my results. Didn't really showed it but i was actually upset inside. I know my marks didn't TOTALLY sucked. But still, i have very high expectations of myself. And so i expected much more considering that i studied. Studied hard. And Prayed hard. Probably if i didn't study , i wouldn't half cared what i got.

Why ? Because didn't study = don't care about it. So it won't make much a difference.

But i Do care. It means the world to me. Thats just me. And half the entire population of Form 4 and every other forms. If they said that Smk Bu 3 is not a competitive school, i would have to disagree. I believe every school is competitive even though people think they're not. Seriously. Who does not care what they get for exams if they actually studied ? How true right ? I know how it feels like to get sucky marks. I have been there OK. Haiz.

But what can we do ? Only buck up and study harder, i guess. We can't change the past but we can change the future. =] Wow. How inspiring. Haha..

Cross my fingers and pray really hard that my other subjects won't suck just as much. The sad thing is that i was actually quite confident for add math and i got like So-So marks only... what will happen to my subjects which i'm not so confident in ?? Argh... Say bye bye to the rest.

Hopefully i will know how to conceal my feelings and emotions inside when the time comes. But i don't think i am strong enough. What to do ?

Sejarah was Good. Thank goodness. But well, everyone did as well. So it didn't make "revenge" sweet or whatever you want to call it. Nat Wongy and Lizzie are all like Super Geniuses la. Even though they said its luck or whatever excuses. Even Marion got wonderful marks and grades. I feel... stupid actually. And when i thought that i was OK. and above average kinda student. Maybe i am, just not an excellent student, no ?

Haiz, i miss blogging, truth to be told. But geniuses don't have BLOGS. They just study. Even if they do have blogs, they rarely update them. Haha. Hit the nail on its head ? Yeah. How true ? See Wongy, Nat, Al, Li Ying, Ning and Lizzie. Some have blogs - rarely update. Some don't have blogs cause probably huge waste of time when they could actually do something useful to reach their matlamat hidup or something siviky...

And with that said, how many people actually read the moral text book ? Yeah. Geniuses do read moral textbooks. Like Li Ying. Haiz..

I'm starting to feel depressed again... NOOO>> Must fight off the attack by the microorganisms ~~ =[

Where is my knight in shining armor with his white horse coming to save me ?

Me. Being me again.

Tagg... finally !

2009-03-06T17:05:00.004+08:00

100 truths, tag 10 people to do the same. Don't forget to tag! Long time since my last tag.. lols.

Last beverage → Err. Strawberry Yogurt Drink.
Last phone call → Can't really remember.. i think it was Julia.
Last text message → From or to ? John sent me last and i sent Ven Hui last i think.
Last song you listened to → Dai Wo Zou - Rainie Yang
Last time you cried→ Its probably very recently..

HAVE YOU EVER:

Dated someone twice → No.. have never dated, for that matter.
Been cheated on → If you never dated, how can you be cheated on ? But sometimes i do feel that way...
Kissed someone & regretted it → Haha.. i wish.
Lost someone special→ Yeah. Kinda.

IN THE PAST MONTH HAVE YOU:

Fallen out of love → Yeah. Totally.
Laughed until you cried → Hmm. Most probably.
Met someone who changed your life → Kind of.
Found out someone was talking about you → Yeah.

How many people on your top friends do you know in real life? → Agreed. Don't know what they mean.
Do you have any pets → Before.
Do you want to change your name → Yeah. Sometimes.
What time did you wake up today → 6.45 am. Around there.
What were you doing at midnight last night → Duh. Sleeping. Just don't get the wrong idea.
Name something you cannot wait for → Err. SPM to be over and done with.
The last time you saw your father→ Last night. Is this really necessary ?
What's one thing you wish you could change→ My hair. Wished that it wasn't so unruly. And yucks.
Have you ever talked to a person named Tom → Nope. Don't think so.
What's getting on your nerves right now → Before this was add math. Not so sure about now.
What's your name → You should know if you're reading this. =] Estee.
Elementary/Primary School→ Sk Taman Megah.
Middle/Secondary School → Smk Bu3
High School → Smk Bu3
Hair color → Black. But i want it red.
Long or short → Depends. Probably shorter than what you think of long.
Are you a health freak → No. Nat is.
or lefty → Righty all the way.

FIRSTS :

First surgery → Err.. Not yet gua. Unless you count when you're born.
First piercing → Form 1 / 2. Ear piercing.
First best friend → Never had one.
First sport you joined → Badminton and always been badminton.
First pet → I think it was a hamster.. or was it a fish ?
First vacation → Can't really remember...

CURRENTLY :

Eating → Nothing.
Drinking → Water ?
Waiting → For nothing.

YOUR FUTURE :

Want kids? → Maybe.
Want to get married?→ If i can find the right man.
Careers in mind? → Lawyer, Interior Designer. Maybe a microbiologist. Or something related to chem.

HAVE YOU EVER :

Kissed a stranger → Don't think so. Maybe in my dreams ?
Drank Wine/Beer/alcohol → If Shandy is counted.
Lost glasses/contacts → No, but my glasses broke countless times.
Ran away from home → I can't even drive, for goodness sake.
Broken someone's heart → Maybe ? or maybe not. How to know ?
Been arrested → I can't drive. Period. What else can you be arrested for ?
Cried when someone died → Yeah.

YOU BELIEVE IN:

Yourself → Not really. But sometimes i exceed my expectations.
Miracles → I do. i know they exist.
Love at first sight → Yes. I do.
Heaven → Yeah. With its streets of Gold and wonderful "heavenly" stuff. =]
Kiss on the first date→ Err. Don't understand but probably doesn't apply here.
Angels → Yeah =]. They're cool.

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY :

Is there one person you want to be with right now? → Maybe. XD
more than one boyfriend/girlfriend at one time? → Nope. Never. That will equal to cheating.
Do you believe in God? → YES. Always have and always will be.

Tag:

> Khai
> Zi yi
> Ning
> Li ying
> Ven Hui
> Mei Fong
> Urgh.

Whoever who is free to do this ~ =]

Cheers to me for being me.

Free.

2009-03-05T18:23:00.003+08:00

Freedom. Such a big word. But i guess people won't know the meaning of the word until they've experienced it for real.

I am free.

From Emo-ness.
From the burden.
From the exams.

But somehow it doesn't feel like i have accomplished something great, even though its great. Maybe cause the feeling of getting back bad results is so great that even though you finished the exams overruns it.

Anyways, i think i'm feeling better now.
No more Emo Bug around me anymore.. probably until i start thinking more than i'm supposed to.

So.
No more thinking too much.
Watch more anime/ jap drama/ taiwanese drama.
Blog more.
Enjoy life MORE ~

Yayy. i think the first time i've jumped in years was today at the staircase with Marion and Leigh Ann. Felt great. Especially to ponteng for like 15 minutes of studying crap. And when i lepaked near the balcony overlooking the field.. Felt great. Like free.

But we can really never be free... No ?
Forever trapped somewhere , sometime.

ME. Forgive the emo ness at the end.

Light up my path.

2009-02-27T17:58:00.003+08:00

These days i have been writing really emo posts cuz i think there is an emo bug going around lately.. just like you know those flu bugs.. ? So yeah.. Just updates this time around. =] I feel much better now than before but not that much better.

So, exams is just around the corner .. like next week. and i have barely studied la. Only a little add math and sejarah but we have like 9 subjects and to top it off nicely.. there's also moral and sivik. Which i dunno what can they test on anyways. Haiz.

So this days me and al have these weird song conversations exchanging nice songs but we both have different opinions on the songs so it hilarious. haha... But overall, i think we do agree that Yiruma is a great composer !!! Most probably the best composer other than Taylor Swift lo.. XD

So i think i have been deep in the dumps lately but i suppose that this is the worst of it. Feeling depressed like a long time.. until today i guess. I suppose i just have to busy myself so that i dont have to think about it. Works most of the time for me. =] Maybe i never felt depressed because i always had tons of work to do here and there... or maybe i am just thinking too much.

Conclusion : Dont think too much, it can just ruin your life.

How true. I guess. I wont be onlining these days no more as i have to express study ~ cuz i didnt have time to study at all last weekend. So this is my last weekend. So i guess i'll see you in the near future.

And i have finished watching MIss No Good !! Will update with pictures and comments on the show later... after exams ??

Tata.

Falala.

2009-02-22T17:39:00.002+08:00

i finally thought of a idea for my oral presentation thanks to Alliyza !! Weeehhoo.

I have lots of mood swings. Weird that i wasn't created a swing or a roller coaster rather than a human being / homosapien. I decided that i will talk about my trip to NZ since i am just too lazy to think of any others that fit what i want to say. And its easy to because i dont have to memorize anything. Okay, maybe a little bit, but i can also be spontaneous.

So with that outta my mind, i need to prepare my hard copy on what i'm suppose to say. Oh well, maybe i could just do that tomorrow in school for all i know. School's a great place to study and do homework as i have a straight up dictionary of add math and all things going with math sitting in front of me. =] And i have less distractions there. Rather than at home. But i really need to start studying already. Exams is just a week or two away. Hopefully i can jump this obstacle okay - lee .

Pray for me. XD Maybe i just need to try a little harder than what i'm doing now. But i'm already trying my best. Maybe its time to give a 101 % rather than just 100 %. Thats why people give up half way or dont bother to try at all. Cuz people want all and more from you when you can only give what you can.

Well, like i always end.

At least now you know there's no trick to being me.

How nice to know that.

I'm relieved.

Me. You. Us.

Pure Nonsense.

2009-02-21T21:24:00.003+08:00

I feel dead tired. All because of going to a super long seminar thingy today.

On a separate note : Anyways. I thought about stuff. i am beginning to think i think quite a lot this few days. I don't think its really good for health but its good for your soul so YEAH, you get it. Firstly, i realized that studying can actually be FUN if you have wasted your time on something else that is totally useless and you say to yourself " i could be studying by using this time instead doing nothing beneficial here " . Ever felt that before ? I really appreciate those time where you are like super duper free and go " i'm bored " . What should i waste my time on now ? Like in Standard six when studying wasn't even needed to score in subjects. Not that i did score or anything but its been quoted before by some geniuses in our school .

Secondly, i am like blank on what to say for my oral presentation next Tuesday. I am coming up with a topic but dunno whether ~~shityoushityoushityou~~ Miss Gravy's ~~shithershithershither~~ gonna comment about some stupid thing that only she can come up with and find problems with my topic, so... yeah. Probably something that i can talk about easily..... Haha.. XD Screw her. I'll talk about anything i want to talk about.

There , i feel much better already. Maybe i should quote

Blogging is good for your health and soul.

It really encourages you to let out your feelings even though you can't say everything online = public. =[
Sadly.
But diary's are not a bad idea too , you know.

Do you know what it feels like when you mistaken people for who they are ? You think they are like that but they end up a little different. How can i have ever thought that Person A was like that ? I already knew Person A was not that kind of person.
In the end, i was just fooling myself into thinking that i actually had seen something other people couldn't. But in the real sense, people was seeing what i couldn't see. I was just blinded. I know its not fair to others who really care about me. I'm sorry.
I have been cheating myself and everyone i know.

I can always feeling it creep up to me....

It really is not special being who i am. At least now you know there isn't a trick to being me.

Depressing ?

2009-02-20T14:38:00.003+08:00

This week has been just URGH for me. I mean there are some good points of it and some really URGH times. Like a graph. Maximum point and minumum point. Add math freak, yes i am. This week , first of all. I have to say that when they asked us to decorate the papan kenyataan of the class la. I was like "Oh Great. How ?? Hopefully ( my class ketua )* will be responsible enough to ask people to bring stuff for the board and then KAO TIM already. "
(* names have been ommited to protect their privacy )

BUT

No, he didnt. So i was like SOOOOO friggin pissed. I mean thats just how i am. I am a Friggin Resposible Person. Too Responsible if you ask Me. So i , being the penolong of the class had to do the work that was supposed to be " the ketua.s" JOB. I really apprieciate all the hard effort put in by Jia Xin !! and Marion !! for helping me complete the work in time. =] I am really grateful for having those kinda people around. XD Thanks guys again ! ( even tho its part of your job, Jia Xin...Still thanks ! ) Through that experience, i can really see who are my friends and who are not. Really. Eye Opener.

And so the rest of the day i was really pissed. And somehow it brought forward to Thursday. I was getting somewhere between Pissed and Depressed. But i think Depressed more suited the moment. i was sitting quite behind in the class as well as there being no friends from OUR gang. Meaning got friends like Lizzie, Wongy and Kar Hei. And Sharon, Kristal behind and everything but its just different. =[ It hasn't really got in my brains yet before that and i was thinking that maybe the class isn't so bad... Instead i WAS SO WRONG.

I miss everything of last year. Even though 3 Aktif had its DOWNS in terms of people, it had people who are real !! The class somehow fit right into the mold. Stupid School. They split us UP even though we did our best and everything to get into the best class and together again. I was VERY , EXTREMELY upset at that point. So i was moody like mad. Even on Wednesday, when me and Al and Marion was lepaking and talking during Yellow house practice.. I feel like we are separating !!! I don't even talk with some of you guys anymore ! More like barely ~~ but still.. I only see you people like on Thursdays and whenever in between. I absolutely HATE it. it feels like such a competition between classes kinda thing. URGH.

Anyways, it didn't get any better. Sorry guys, ( Jim , KY , Zi Yi ) I was really upset and depressed that day. Remember that time you guys wanted to do the Carta Organisasi thingy ?? Sorry ~~~~~~ Didn't mean to get angry and look pissed at you guys. TT More like i was pissed at my life.

Pissed at my life. Pissed at my class. Pissed at everything. I absolutely HATE miss gravy. No one to talk to except Lizzie. But we hang out with different groups anyways. Marion's a way away. Nat and Danielle's ALL the way in front. I'm stuck behind. But me and Lizzie somehow pushed the tables towards the middle so its better now. But doesn't change much.

UGRH. How many times have i said that already ? Who cares. The only thing that can cheer me up and comfort me is my taiwanese shows. There is nothing to look forward to. Except studying. Exams. Study some more. Exams again. Hopefully i can last until Form 5. Maybe a reunion is in the queue. Who knows ?

Tadaa. Now you know there's no trick to it.

Valentine's Day.

2009-02-15T09:37:00.003+08:00

Valentine's Day. It really gives me the creeps if you asked me about this day a few years ago... but i think i have changed my opinion on it this year. =] No reason. I just feel now that it has given a new and beautiful meaning to life.. and to people. Sounds cheesy but true. I saw a few things that made me change my mind. But before that...

Yesterday i went to school, yeah, i know ( stupid right ? who goes to school on a sat ? ) So anyways, we went for a Merentas Desa thingy that the school planned almost every year to get our fat butts off the chairs. It was quite a short run as it was only about 3 to 4 km compared to the one a few year back .. around 7 km i think. So we ran and walked... but apparently no one saw us ran and asked us whether we walked all the way ?? Thats insulting our "kemampuan" okay >>>??? Aiyoh... we are not so lembik until we walk all the way right ?

So back to the topic. I saw a real confession that day!! It was certainly interesting to watch but i thought it wouldn't be so nice to watch and instead gave them some privacy lo. But everybody went to see anyways, regardless. It was quite cool and romantic lar. All the best for them !! XD And i saw some form 1s trying to be a little romantic too... It was soo sweet. Form 1s already cant wait to be in that position ~~ =] It was really cute and everything ... and that made me think again about the real meaning of the day....

All in all, it was a nice experience lar.. going to school on Valentine's Day... XD If i wasn't so friggin tired, that is. But i got a chance to experience Valentine's day in a new light. ~~ Thats cool, right ? Hehe...

Oh yeah, before i forget .

Happy Single's Day !!
( Don't worry people, that we dont have dates and people to kau us !!
We are still standing and happy !! )

RIGHT ?

Enjoy your day, XD
Me and me and me.

Birthday bash ~

2009-02-09T16:54:00.003+08:00

We had Ning's bday bash after so long !! I mean after the splitting of the classes la. I wanted to go out wif the gang cuz so long never see them and hang out wif them liao. Only like on Thursdays la. XD So happy le.

But i came almost the latest, 2nd latest cuz i went straight from church. Like 1 something only i reached IU. My bro teman me go find them but couldn't find them at gsc. So faster call Nat. They said finding place to eat wor. So i saw Nat and NIng at the bottom of the elevator of gsc. Quickly ran down to meet them. In the end, decided to eat at A & W. So funny, the guys sneaked up behind us when we were just about to order. Yayy... Wongy came !! Okay, that does sound weird at first but you see, he actually called me and told me maybe he couldn't come cuz his mom wanted him to go BK classes that aftrenoon plus he had to eat lunch wif his mom's kawan. Luckyly, canceled. So can go lor. =] Hehe. Saw Yappy , Li liang and his brother , and Ky.

We sat down and then we started eating... until i saw Jeffrey Teh and Su Wee walking straight past me !! It was like SO weird. Until i realised that Ky's old classmates also were hanging out wif them !! What a friggin small world. And they know each other.. Wongy knows a few of them as well as Ky too. Topsy turvy weird man. I went to curi some of their fries =] as well as wongy's fries Lol. XD Went to watch Pink Panther 2. It was quite funny la. Especially the starring of the show, Steve Martin la. Dunnno how to spell his on-screen name. HE and that Nicole so funny. XD Anyways, the EVEN weirder thing was at the end of the show, Su Wee called my name from behind and so happened that THEY WERE WATCHING THE SAME SHOW SAME TIME ~ Freaky weird. Maybe stalking us ?? Lolz. I could only dream. Hehe.

After that, we wanted to bowl and play pool but too many poeple liao.... so no choice. Ning wanted to buy some tennis balls, so we followed her go find some with a good price lor. Went to the Sporting CLub amd Jusco. In the end, she bought some from Jusco, some bargain thingy. =] Good for you Ning !! You found a good price for it. XD

We lepaked around the mall for a bit. Until Wongy , Li liang and bro went up to the arcade ... And me, Ning, Nat , Yappy, JJ ( who came all the way from PD ) and Ky ( later on ) continue to lepak downstairs. Lepak lepak lepak then Nat and Ning decided wanted to go play the " banging " game and some other game so they went up. I was forced to go up after they ditched me downstairs. Evil ppl , lol. So i watched them play. Before going home, decided wanted to get a bag for my exercise books for school so went S & J to go see. Ning ( who is cunning ) haha... went to see how much her pressie's are. haha... =]

Thats all i have time for, Chiaoz.